"Darkness" {Book 2} =Complete=

"Help.. Me.."

{↑↑↑ Color of Jacket/Petals}

After i ate my food i then climb up the roof and look at the buildings and houses.. I sighed

Do they really care?

I then heard footsteps going up.. I froze and knew who it was.. Ichi-niisan.. Im not in a mood to do this right now or making a 'fake' smile.. I forced a smile and wave my sleeves.. He then sat down beside me...

I bet he's expecting a question? But my question will be remained unanswered...

I sighed at the thought still with my forced smile.. Ichi-nii glanced at me.. "Are you ok jyushi-" i cut him off by saying "No need to worry about me nii-san!" I said with my forced smile..

Just keep forcing.. Just keep smiling..

"Are you sure?-" "YES NII-SAN!" I said with my forced smile. He looked abit scared at my sudden scream but i bet he's used to my annoying voice.. Who wouldn't be annoyed at my obnoxious voice? Im an annoying bother to everyone.. I waste of time.. A waste of life..

Who would hang out with me? Like a friend? No one.. They love.. They leave.. I die..

That thought just shot my heart and it broke into pieces.. I didn't cry.. I didn't frown.. I was so used to getting hurt.. Im already turning into a freak..

I was always a freak...

I then came back to reality.. Ichi was shaking me saying if im ok.. "Im ok nii-san! I was just thinking of stuff I'LL BE GOING!!" I said climbing back down to the living room.. I opened the door leaving a 'SMACK' sound leading everyone paying attention to me.. I ran to my spot.. I then put on my forced smile.. Please stop..

Freak!

Weirdo!

Annoying!

"STOP!"

Wait did i say that out loud.. I noticed my hands was on my ears.. And i felt tears roll down my cheeks... I wiped them as quick as i can and i wore my forced smile and i put out my hands on my ears.. "Jyushi... Are you ok? You looked.. Depressed.." Todo said with a worried expression.. "I-im fine todo!" I said waving my sleeves.. " i dont think so.." Choro-niisan said.. "Dont worry nii-san!! Im fine!!" I said.. "You looked scared.." Osomatsu said..

I an annoying brother.. A bother to everyone.. Why is everyone caring about me.. I dont deserve such kindness.. I deserve pain.. Suffer.. Sadness..

I shook my head and said "IM OK NII-SAN I JUST HAD A BAD MEMORY.." i said scratching the back of my neck.. And they had a 'O' face..

Of course they know its about kara.. But... I lied..

They pat my head comforting me..

I deserve pain.. I deserve to suffer..

I 'smiled'..

Help me..

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