"Darkness" {Book 2} =Complete=

"Crying on my shoulder"

I got up the balcony looking at the bright stars shining through space. I then glanced at my left hand. The blood stain was still there.. I washed it off awhile ago but then a brother of mine interrupted me.. I still was acting like i shouldn't have been.. Faking smiles.. Cutting.. Attempting.. I sighed..

Pathetic!

Foolish!

Idiot!

Freak!

I started realizing tears falling down my cheeks i kept crying letting the sobs and sniffs all out.. I didn't noticed kara was watching me sob and cry..

Karamatsu's Pov.
I secretly sneaked into the balcony. Making sure i dont get caught. I heard jyushi mumbled loud enough to let me hear it "Why am i alive? I didn't ask to be alive.. Im just a bother to everyone.. Just a toy of annoyance..". My chest felt so much pain seeing jyushi the sunshine of all of us crying and thinking negatively.. I stand up finally letting jyushi know im here. He flinched and quickly wipe his tears. "Why are you up this late.. Nii-san?" He asked.. I could ask him the same thing.. But i stayed quiet.. I leaned to jyushi and wrap my arms around him.. I was so heart broken seeing him like this.. Its not like him..

Jyushi was surprised of the sudden hug but he soon calm down. "Your not an annoyance to me.. Nor our brothers.. Your our ball of sunshine. And it breaks my heart to see you like this.." I sighed. He slowly hugged back and he cried on my shoulder.

Im here for you..

I gently broke the hug, patting his head with a bright smile. We got down the balcony and go to the futon. "Wanna hear a lullaby?" I asked jyushi. He nodded smiling on the situation. I sat beside him and he laid down the futon.. I sang a lullaby making jyushi slowly calming down and closing his eyes.

Next Day~

Yesterday was an event! Jyushi was finally being himself again! Im glad i comforted him yesterday it was one of the greatest day of my life. But at the same time.. Heart breaking. The ball of sunshine was smiling widely making me smile back we all woke up and got down stairs eating breakfast...

Jyushimatsu's pov.
I smiled widely and thinking of the evnt yesterday its one of the greatest times i
Had! We all ate breakfast but i still felt ignored.. Karamatsu didn't noticed that our brothers were giving kara so much attention.. "Hey nii-san wanna play BASEBALL?!!!" I said my smile wide open. "Sorry jyushi im feeding the cats later but im not in a mood to play right now...." Ichi-niisan said.. I slowly walk away my smile abit faded. I asked all of my brothers but they all are busy.. "Hey kara wanna go shopping today?" Todo asked kara. "Sure thing todo!" Kara respond. "Wanna join us jyushi?" Kara asked but then todo shook his head then said "Sorry jyushi nii-san! I just want kara to go but maybe someone can play baseball with you!" Todo said grabbing kara by the wrist and rushing to the door leaving me with a faded small smile..
~time skip by the devil himself..~
I was all alone.. Todo was with kara.. Oso was playing pachinko.. Choro was in Nyaa-chan's concert/signing. Ichi was feeding the cats.. I was all alone.. I felt ignored.. Left behind..

Am i really a ball of sunshine?

{Hello everyone! Im back from my trip! Hope you enjoyed!}