Forbidden Love

Chapter 5

Adrianna's POV

Have you ever cared for someone so much that it seems like they're glued to you mind?

You hear their name everywhere, everything reminds you of them, you dream about them and no matter how hard you try they're all you think about.

They're the first thing you think about in the morning, and the last before you go to sleep. You want to talk to them every second and every hour of the day, just to hear their voice.

You give them all your attention because they make you happy and help you forget about everything bad in your life. It sounds great to have that someone, but its scary to know that one day they could leave and take that happiness away with them when they go.

Love can be a scary thing.

"Whats on your mind?" Chris says in a questioning tone. I look up to see his light hazel eyes staring deeply into mine searching for a answer. I sit and think for a while before replying, trying to figure out what to say.

I finally speak up and ask the questions that have drowned my thoughts since he first got here.

"What happenes when you have to leave again? What's gonna happen to us? What am I supposed to do?" I blurt out.

"What happens when I have to go? I-I dont know. But what I do know is that I can't take anymore time away from you," he pauses for a moment.

" What happens to us? What kind of question is that? I'm not gonna let this stop our relationship if that's what your thinking! Adri I love you .. and there's nothing or no one who can stop that. If you really love someone, you'll do anything to be with them and make them happy. Baby, I'm doing my best to keep you happy while I'm here... I don't know what else I can do" he says softly , still gazing deeply into my eyes as if he can read my mind .

"Chris I know you love me, I love you too and you know that. And what do you mean what kind of question is that? Its a reasonable question! Chris we can't sit here and pretend everythings fine! We're going to be separated whether we like it or not and I know you want to cherish the time we have together, trust me I do too . But what am I supposed to do when your gone? Sit in my room and cry all day like I've been doing since you left the last time? I don't know how much more of this I can take. Sitting around all day, not knowing if I'm even going to see you again. Hearing your name everywhere, dreaming about you here with me. I don't know how much more pain I can put myself through anymore, maybe..." my lips stop moving as I realize what im saying.

"Maybe we're not meant to be..."

"Baby are you hearing yourself? Do you think this is hard for me? Having to wake up every morning knowing that if I didnt go to make that last deal that day, everything would be alright. Living with the regret in myself every single day. Knowing that the 250$ I made on that one little sell caused me to be separated from you for all this time. We weren't even supposed to see each other again. You act like this is easy for me! All of this is MY fault! All ME ! You think its easy for me to live with this shit ?" he says sternly, now raising his voice. Just as I was about to reply he continues to speak .

"Do you not realize how much I love you? Adrianna you showed me what real love was," he pauses to grab my hand in his.  "You taught me that all the money, clothes, shoes, and materialistic things don't matter because nothing matters without love. I never in my life thought a girl could change me the way you have. I would trade anything in the world, just to be able to wake up every morning to that beautiful smile of yours. Baby if I could go back in time and change all the dumb ass mistakes I made, I would! But I can't do that can I?" he says getting up and walking towards the door. He stops right in the middle of my doorway and continues to speak.

"If you want to give up after all we've been through, go ahead. Just know... I thought you would be the one who would always stand by my side, be my ride or die. " he says in a dissapointed tone. "Let me know when my Adrianna is back, because this isn't the one I remember. My Adrianna doesn't give up"

I sit there in complete shock as he throws a box on my bedroom floor and storms down the stairs. I hear the front door slam confirming that he really just left.

I finally come to my senses and run down the stairs trying to catch Chris before hes gone. I reach the front door and pull it open, dashing outside just to see the tail lights of Chris' car speeding down the road.

Damn, I'm so stupid

I walk back into the house slamming the door behind me. I slide down the door bringing my knees to my chest.

I feel the sting of tears begining to form in my eyes. I can't help but break down and cry.

Chris is all I've ever wanted in a guy.

He's smart , funny , sweet , caring , and has an amazing personalitly. Him being increadibly sexy is just a bonus for me.

Am I really willing to throw all that away just to escape the pain I've endured and will continue?

How can someone so amazing cause so much pain?

I loose track of time, overwhelmed in my thoughts and tears. I keep replaying the image of him walking through my doorway. The one sentence that has stuck in my head since the moment he walked down those steps .

"I thought you would be the one who would always stand by my side."

I replay the image of him leaving once again, when I remember the box he threw on my floor.

I run up the stairs into my bedroom and pick up the small black box laying on the floor.

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Will Adrianna come to her senses and realize this is a relationship she doesnt want to loose? 

What's in the box Chris threw on Adri's bedroom floor?

What will happen next?

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