Take my hand?!

Chap 3: Why me?

I am still so confused about yesterday. I don't know what is going on with my BFFs and I, but I would hate for this to go on. Today Zaid, Umar,and I are going to Sunday school with a whole bunch of other kids our age. We never really got along with most,but some we did like our friends Zaynab, Ali, and Farheen.  I actually can't wait to see them, we haven't seen them since the end of school and now it is summer so i am excited. They promised us that they would see us when Sunday school began so, I am looking forward to it.

" Aasiyah get ready, I will be in the car." My ummi yelled impatiently

"Ummi, but you already know I take long when I get dressed, you will be in the car for a long time." I said even if my ummi wasn't even in the house.

"Dullah should I wear green or red?" I asked my little brother who's face was dirty with chocolate.

" Mmmm,wewl i wike gween."

"Ok then." i said and kissed his for head.

I got dressed, grabbed three green apples (btw: They are our favorite.), and ran out of the door into the car.

"Zaid and Umar are at Saphia's  house (Umar's house).When we arrive at your aunty Saphia's house, go get them."

"Ok ummi."

My ummi stopped the car and I ran out and knocked on the door.

"Who is it?"aunty Saphia asked

"Its me aunty, it is Aasiyah."

"Umar and Zaid aunty Aaliya is here to pick you up." I heard her voice from inside and footsteps getting close to the door.

Zaid and Umar came barging out of the door laughing and stopped when they saw me.

"Hey Umar, are we going to a ball or is someone looking super flashy?"Zaid asked Umar and winked at me.

"I don't know, I think she is trying to impress someone." Umar made a confused face then winked at me too.

"What? We are going to see our friends for the first time since  school, I wanna look presentable."

"Oh, so it's Ali you are trying to impress?" Zaid suddenly sound concerned and his eyes got wide. Umar just looked down.

"No you guys, remember our promise to each other when we were ten.I would never break it." I said while we walked to the car, but i felt that what I just said wasn't going to be true.

"Yeaaaaaaaaaaaa......"Umar agreed ,kinda shady.

"Whatever."Zaid said and shook his head.

We drove for about thirty minutes and we arrived at the Mosque in which Sunday school is held. I got out of the car and searched around for my old friends. I didn't see them so I just said goodbye to my ummi and went into the Mosque with Zaid and Umar by my sides. I feel happy they are here with me! I don't know what life would be without them. Oh Allah thank you soo for my BFFs! When we got there, there were not that many kids so we sat down in the corner. All we basically do in Sunday school is listen to lectures, take notes, and have tests on what we were lectured on the next Sunday. So it's pretty easy.

"Hey, Assalamualaikum!!!' I heard three voices shout at the same time. I looked up to see Zaynab, Ali, and Farheen walking quickly toward us. I got up a hugged Farheen and Zaynab while Umar and Zaid did their boyish hug thing with Ali. 

"I am soo happy to see you guys it's been forever!!" I said after letting them go and acknowledging Ali, since he was non mahram i just said my salaams to him and that is what Zaid and Umar did to Zaynab and Farheen.

"Yea, like dude, we were missin you guys so much."Ali said with a huge smile and I smiled at that.

We talked until the lecture started. The boys and girls had to be separated, so the boys went over to the other side of the room while we stayed on the side we were already at. We can't talk during lectures so we remained silent. I took notes here and there, but i was amazed at this one ayat in the Holy Quran " fa ina mael usre usra ina mael usre usra, verily after hardship there is relief". I listen to a nasheed called "After Hardship Comes Ease"by Saif Adam, but i never really got it. Now I want to keep this ayat in my life forever! I want to remember it and nourish it when I am having rough times. I think this is indeed my favorite ayat in the Holy Quran!

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The lecture was over about ten minutes ago and now we are just waiting for my ummi to pick us up.( I love these lectures, they are sick. Gosh, man). So we are just talking to our old buddies. We were taking until I noticed Zaid and Zaynab staring at eachother. I zoned out, and had a chill. I don't know how I am feeling right now,but I am also so confused at the same time! I never knew how it felt for someone to like my BFFs, but I don't like this feeling at all! What is happening and Why is it happening to me, Why me?! 

"Beep,beep,beep" I saw my ummi waving towards us and I wanted to run away,but before I could Zaynab grabbed my arm.

"Aasi, I have to tell you something and I've been meaning to tell you for a long time." I gulped down at her words and tried to act natural while Farheen looked and smiled like the news was going to be great.

"Yea, what is it?" I managed to say hoping that she isn't going to tell me what I think she is going to tell me. 

"Ummm...I...I...I like Zaid." I almost gasped at her words, but instead I just forced a smile on my face.

"Oh...." I got cut off by Farheen who says....

"Isn't that sooo cute, I mean, Zaid and Zaynab. Their names go perfect together and they do too!!!" she squealed.

"Yea, that is great, but I gotta go so umm....bye." I ran in my ummi's car without giving salaams to my two friends who were just talking to me. I don know what to do, all I know is to stare out of the window and that is exactly what I am gong to do for I don't know if I can speak to anyone right now.

I feel horrible and I don't even know why! Is it because I am not used to girls liking my BFFs or is it another reason...I mean why is this happening to me right now?Why me out of all people in the world!? Why me!? I need to stay calm after all, Allah is the best of planners. He planned for this to happen, so i shouldn't question. Oh Allah please forgive me for my behavior? I will put all trust in you.

" Are you guys hungry? I can take yall to the restaurant reel quick?" I heard my ummi's voice from in the passenger seat and i don't know if i should speak or not.

" Yes, thank you."Umar said and I felt his eyes rested on me.

"Yes,please" Zaid said and looked at me as well. 

"Umm...I guess." I said quietly and still stare out of the window. Now I know everyone in this car knows there is something the matter with me. Gosh.

"O...K, resturant here we come!my ummi said trying to act cool, but I honestly hate that.

" Aasiyah, what's wrong?" Umar whispered.

He is ssoo darn sweet mann,but I would think of him more like a brother than anything else. I don't know about Zaid though.

" Nothing, I am fine,thank you. I said a shot him a fake smile.

"No, really Aasiyah, Whats wrong? Zaid asked and that's when I felt a little weird.

"Nothing, Nothing is wrong?" I lied and suddenly began to hate my life. Everything is changing and I hate change.