Take my hand?!

Chap 11: After hardship there is relief.

I tried to paddle away as fast as I could, but all of a sudden I felt myself glide into a bump then I fell on my bum, and onto the concrete sidewalk.

"Owww" I groaned out loud forgetting that Zaid and Zaynab were trying to catch up with me. I took a glance ack and only saw Zaid coming toward me, Zaynab probably stopped. I groaned in frustration at the scarpes I saw on my palms and at the fact that Zaid was just approaching me.

" Ugh, just leave me alone!" I scolded Zaid as he tried to help me up.

"Calm down girl!"

"No!!! I don't want to speak to you." I said smacking his hands away from me as I sat there on the ground as I noticed tears coming continuously down my face remembering the past when we had no troubles and didn't worry about"love". We are still kids, well teenagers, but love shouldn't be this complicated in three Bffs life, I don't think.(#friendzoned). Life will never be the same after this will it?

"Aasiyah, listen to me!"

"And ,why should I? Ugh.. just please leave me be!" I said realizing that Zaid is no longer my Best Friend.(in my mind)

"I am sorry, ok! I really like you and---"

"Are you forgetting that your actions aren't allowed in Islam....you just don't care do you!!??!! I said interrupting his last sentence. I got up on my own and walked away even though I could feel a bad bruise on my leg. Don't ever talk to me again!" I said as my sobbing got loud.

"Aasiyah..please listen to me and please...please take my hand." his voice got soft, not like iv'e heard in a long time. I ignored the last question and began to speak.

"What do you want to say? That you are sorry for not listening to Umar and I when we tried to help you do the right things instead of the wrong. Well if that is the case then don't apologize to us! Seek tawba from Allah!" I yelled and with that I stomped away.

"Aasiyah! he screamed and my footsteps stopped mid way at the tone in his voice. I love you!"he said and I got even more angry at that. He is acting like he is Not muslim at all. First he likes Zaynab, now he Loves me! Make up your mind and not even that. Just pray! Do things the Halal way and everything will be alright.

" Go to sleep, Zaid!" I couldn't believe what I said, but i still continued to walk away.

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Aasi...what happened? Asif asked as I bust into the door with tears flowing down my face. I noticed that Umar was here with Anjam and Abdullah on his lap confused. I ignored his question and ran up the stairs to my room. Two seconds later Asif and Umar came up to my room banging on the door.

"Aasiyah  Hassan come out of your room and explain whats going on. " Asif said with a sudden tone that sounded like he really cared. It made me cry more of the thought that he really cared.

"Aasi? Whats wrong? I heared Umars sweet voice say ,and I hated my self at the thought of how much of a jerk I have been to him and he still had the courtesy to speak to me.

I was just about to speak when I heared someone knock on the door. Asif and Umar went down stairs to answer it and I felt my legs get up to go in my rest room. I looked in the mirror and realized that my khol and was spreading. I unwrapped my hijab and splashed water on my face continuously. I tried thinking that this was a dream, but realizing that I forgot to pray zuhr salah I started to cry more. I cannot believe this!

" Oh Allah please forgive me." I quickly made duah and started to make wuduh. I walked out of my room to see Anjam and Abdullah staring at my sadness.

" Atiyah, don't cwy!! Abdullah said hugging my legs and Anjam came too hug me too. Member whwn I was cwying cause I coulwn't have the chaockwate. Yous told me to be happy cause Awah gives us soo muwch stuffs better then chockwate in de futoor aftew we haves hard times in wife. his big eyes looked up at me. I couldn't help but smile at how much he spoke. I have never heard him speak so much like this. I finally made out was saying and smiled. I guess both of my bro's are really smart. (# the Einstein brothers)

"You are right Dullah, After hardship there is relief. I smiled a little, but felt silly that a three year old was reminding me of Allah's mercy.

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So I finally forgot about the whole thing with Zaid when my abi finally arrived home. He arrived hours ago and it has been fun since. Now everyone is getting ready for bed. I gave my abi a kiss on the cheek and started to walk up the stairs when my ummi stopped me.

"Aasi, I have to speak to you and Asif tomorrow, ok. she pulled a fake smile on and she looked very tired so I didnt bother her about what it is going to be about. Instead I went to bed thinking of what our conversation was going to be about. I thanked Allah for everything as I do every night and I did my Hisa as well and soon fell asleep.