Friends with Benefits

Part 12

Friends With Benefits part 12:


Justin's arms gripped around my waist and my head was on his shoulder.


Our body heat together under the blanket and our minds directed to both the tv and our food.


This is so perfect and I have to go and ruin it.


If I don't do it now I never will and I can't just keep letting shit slide.


I took a deep breathe and sighed. I sat forward putting my curly fries on the coffee table in front of my and turned myself slightly so I was looking up at Justin.


He must have felt my eyes on him because he looked toward me smiling, me must be enjoying this as much as I am.


"Justin, babe," I started adding the babe to keep us both calm, "we really gotta talk." I said calmly.


He looked away and sighed dropping one of his cheese sticks out of his hand and into the box. "I'm really enjoying this time together but we can't keep avoiding what's happened." I said straight to the point. "Let's try this," I said with a new idea in my head.


I repositioned myself so I was cross-legged and facing him completely. His hands were away from me and my food was in the bag on my lap.


"Talk to me, tell me what you want. I don't mean sex cause I already know that but tell me what you're not telling me. I don't have a fucking idea what the hell happened in that office this morning. I obviously missed something and I want to know what the fuck is going on. Also, if there's something you've been holding back since our fight about you and your bar whore, tell me now. I don't want to fight with you anymore and I think if we get everything out there in front of each other the-" Justin grabbed the side of my face and forcefully kissed me hard.


Once I comprehended what happened I kissed back.


He pulled away and was inches away from my face but was still holding my head in his hands "you talk way to much," he chuckled at me.


"Look, I'm not into this emotional game okay. I don't want to hurt you but if you really want me to be honest then you might get hurt a little -or a lot depending on how you take it." I didn't say anything for a moment after he stopped talking, I wasn't sure if I was ready to get more hurt, I didn't know if I could handle it after the shit the past few days have been for me.


I hesitantly nodded my head "I want you to be honest," I was really unsure of myself but i listened.


"I'm not into just staying with one girl. Not to sound cocky but you know who I am and we both know there's a lot of girls out there who want a piece of me and it would be rude to not give them what they wanted." He stood up and started to walk around while he talked.


"I like you, I really do but not just you, there's other girls out there, beautiful girls and- well I just don't want to stick with one right now, maybe in the future when I'm older and want to settle down I will stick and stay with one but right now I'm too young to just fuck one girl. I like variety and no disrespect because you are very hot but I just can't sit down and call you -or anyone- my girlfriend right now. And with the shit with Scooter I honestly don't know. I was all prepared to just tell him it was a mistake and will never happen again but when he thought we were dating it made more sense to go along with that than to go on and make up a whole new story." He sat back down next to me.


"You are my best friend and I don't want that to change but these feelings we're getting for each other cant happen right now. Maybe if you can stick around long enough it will happen one day but for now, it's just not gonna happen babe," He finished.


I was so puzzled. I felt like I was stabbed repeatedly in the heart.


"S-so what am i supposed to do during this "relationship" scooter wants us to have? Are we just gonna pretend like we actually are together and love each other and then later you go fuck other girls and no one knows about it?," I was tripping over my own words I was so unstable from what my head just comprehended.


"Yeah! I'm glad we understand each other," he said taking advantage of my damaged state.


"Expect you missed the detail that I'm not only gonna fuck other girls, but I'm gonna be fucking you." He said pushing my hair behind my shoulder and kissing up my neck.


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