Friends with Benefits

Part 16

Friends With Benefits chapter 16

DESTINY'S POV

{the next morning}

My head was comfortably lying on Justin's soft, warm chest. It was steadily rising up and down as he breathed. The room smelled of sex. The same smell I had come to know in this "relationship" with Justin. Justin was so gentle and careful last night. Believe me, he was never rough or aggressive during sex but this time was different. I think it's safe to say that for the first time since our journey began, he actually made love to me.

I didn't want to move, I was too blissfully enjoying the perfection of this moment. I looked up slightly to catch a view of him. His head was slightly tilted to the side resting on his satin pillow and his mouth was partly open. He was in a deep slumber I was finding adorable. It was that moment it hit me like a damn freight train, I want this. I want him. I gently lifted my hand and gently touched his chin with my index finger. I want to wake up to this every morning again except this time I want it to mean something. I love him and I need him to love me too. He didn't even stir at my touch on his face.

Without even opening his eyes he lifted his hand, grabbing mine and resting it in his to the side. His eyes then slowly began to flutter open. It took a few seconds but his eyes were finally open and -they looked happy, and full of lust. I looked deeply into his amber eyes I smirked recalling the events the previous night. I was fairly proud of myself for the accomplishment of showing Justin a new flavor of myself. It was perfect.

Justin must have been thinking his own thoughts on the night before as well because he casually slid his other hand down to my ass, leaving his hand there. "I love you." He said like it was not a big deal at all, like it was a habit. "I love you too," I replied without hesitation. He smiled widely at me and I smiled right back. "Round two?" He asked letting go of my hand and and brushing a strand of hair behind my ear. "Absolutely" I accepted immediately.

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{fast forward 3 weeks}

It's been a few weeks since me and Justin confessed our feelings and we became a real couple. Everyone knew about it, media, fans, etc. and frankly I didn't give a damn. I didn't give two fucks what other people thought about me and Justin together. He is my rock and anyone who has a problem with that can suck my big toe. Me and Justin are at my house right now, he decided that I should move in with him officially and I was all up for it but it takes time to sell a house. So, We decided that we would stay here for a couple weeks since we spent time at his house constantly. I liked the idea of switching it around and Justin staying with me for a change. Justin was downstairs on the phone while I was upstairs waiting for him to come to bed.

We've been here for a good week and a half and he seemed pretty used to sleeping in another house. It was another 15 minutes before he finally come in, he seemed unsteady and bothered. "Hey baby, are you alright?" I asked concerned leaving the bed to comfort him. He accepted me into his arms, "yeah baby I'm fine, just a little stressed," he replied looking into my eyes. I could tell he wasn't telling me everything but I let it go. I wanted to relieve his stress so I gave him what he loves the most, sex.

After two hours of making love to him. We were staring into each others eyes as we laid across from each other tangled in each other and sheets. "I love you so much, okay?" He said as he pulled me into a hug. My head laid against his chest. "I love you too Justin." "And I always will no matter what babe." He assured me as he rubbed my hair and kissed me head. I fell asleep in his embrace feeling so lucky and blessed.

When I woke up the next morning, the warmth I had learned to always be there was gone. I felt around half asleep not understanding why he wasn't there. I opened my eyes to look for his presence, which wasn't found. I looked on my side dresser seeing a piece of notebook paper and his lucky dog tag. I grabbed the dog tag first, examining it. I laid it beside me and started to unfold the paper.

It read:

Destiny,

I love you, I always have and I always will. You will never understand how hard this is, and I'm so sorry. Ashley, the girl I slept with during our agreement, is pregnant. And the baby is mine. I took a paternity test to make sure and it was positive. I could never make you suffer with having to love someone who is raising a baby that is not yours so, I'm leaving. I couldn't say this to your face, I just couldn't face you like that. I'm a coward for that I know but, just know that I love you so so much and just like I said last night that's never going to change. Please forgive me for this and just know, I would take it all back if I could because you are the love of my life. I know what it feels like to grow up without a dad and I could never do that to my child. I know what if feels like to have parents that aren't together and how heartbreaking that can be, so I'm going to trade a diamond for a rock and marry her so I can give my child the best life. I love you. I'm so sorry baby. I love you.

At that was the moment. I broke.

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Sorry for the wait guys!