Roomies [BoyXBoy]

Chapter 17: Heartbreaker

This is uneditted. Please excuse any mispledd words and wrong grammaring. Dont hate me!

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Matt's POV

Waking up and feeling as if you never rested at all sucks. It seems like all i did all night was to lay down, toss and turn, lay down some more, toss and turn again. Its like a playlist on repeat. Not to mention the fact that as I toss and turn, my mind is full of worry and question. Whats new right? I'm an insecured worry wart.

I didnt go running today simply because i dont have the energy to do so. The idea of sleeping in is so appealing.

After minutes of just lying and staring at the ceiling, i hear the bed next to me creak. My solitude was broken and the events of last night played before my eyes. Like a slow motion picture letting me see everything in detail.

The date with Earl was okay, not magnificent but thats all because of me. I cant put the suckiness of it to Earl because it was me who's hang up with the guy on the other side of the room and refuses to enjoy the attention that another boy was giving me. A good looking goofy boy that has a billion dollar smile with him.

And I feel horrible about it. After thinking about my plan about distraction and how to get over my straight roommate, it made me understand that I am a douchebag. I wanted to use Earl as a distraction. A rebound.

And that is something that I dont want to be done to me. That's just wrong. I dont like the feeling that i've felt after i put my self in Earl's shoe if this continues. It has to stop as early as now. And thats what i decided to do.

Now a bigger problem at present, back to the reason why I was not able to sleep. Kris.

How is he taking this? He now knows that I liked guys and knowing that might damage the friendship that we have. The friendship that I was trying to keep hence the reason why I wanted to have a distraction.

I heard movements from the other side of the room and tried my best to look like I was sleeping. It was so out of character that I'm still in bed way past my wake up time and I know Kris will pick tha up. But he didnt comment or tried to get my attention. By the way i hear movements in the room, it seems like he's getting ready for the day. When I heard that the bathroom door was shut close, I decided to wake up and get ready too. Maybe not talking about what happened last night is the best course at this moment.

But that doesnt mean that I dont think about any possibilities. Is he okay with me being who i am? If not, Should I just move out? Would he consider moving out? Will he still be my friend?

I was so lost in my world that i didnt hear the bathroom door open and didnt noticd Kris going out.

"Good morning." He said and that startled me. I didnt think that he will be greeting me. Or maybe its the calm before the storm.

"H-hi." Ughhh. Me and this stuttering is really getting old. I risk a look on his face and that look broke my heart. His brows are furrowed. A mixture of emotion that i am not sure of. Uncertainty? Disgust? I dont know. For sure, it isnt good.

He continued in getting ready and there was an awkward silence in the room. When was the last time that it felt like this? Right. A long time ago. We always talk in the morning and share easy banters and none of that is happening now. Which is unnerving for me. I continued eating and decided to take a shower bringing some clothes with me, unfocused.

I dont want to cause anymore annoyance or make him feel uncomfortable so i put on a tanktop and some short when i got out of the bathroom.

He was eating when i got out and a frown on his face. That further brought my mood down. I continued on getting dress without any other word to Kris.