Unfamiliar feelings

The morning after.

The next morning. Still Kensis POV.

I pull up outside ops and notice Sam and callens cars already there. Great. My attention shifts to my blonde haired partner, who's eyes are still puffy and swollen from crying, no doubt mine look the same. I jog up to Deeks and begin to speak 'I-'.
'Just don't Kensi I now know we're I stand with you so just drop it' he says icey and distant. Damn I've screwed up. Silently I let a few tears roll down my cheeks. After about 5 mins of self pity I pull my self together and go into ops, I walk into the bull pen and find the senior agents trying to interrogate Deeks about what's gone on. When he notices my presence he gets up and leaves, I place my bag down ignoring the stare of Sam and callen. After 2 minutes I hear the sound of someone beating a punch bag to death, I know it's Deeks. 'What the fuck has he done' callen asks furious, realising I've been crying. 'I'm going to talk to him' Sam says through gritted teeth rising from his chair. 'don't! it was my fault this has gone on, I'll go speak to him, just drop it'. I say leaving for the gym.
'Deeks, Deeks' I plead as he ignores me. Eventually I lose my patience, 'MARTIN ANDREW DEEKS' I yell. The punching stops and my partner looks at me with fresh tears in his eyes.
' what Kensi?' He asks in barley a whisper, like he was going to give in.
'I knew I shouldn't of just walked out like that last night, I'm so sorry' I say my eyes now stinging with fresh tears
'I'm sorry kens, I am, I shouldn't of snapped at you this morning, it was just to much for me to process, your still my best friend fern and I don't what that to stop. If it means for us to stay that way then so be it, but I will never break our promise, but I need my space for a while, I'll still by your partner at work and everything but our 'thing' needs to lay off for a while' Deeks says crying aswell. He pulls me into a hug and whispers in my ear, 'please don't cry kens, it break me seeing you like this'. Before walking out of the gym into the boys locker room.  I don't bother to put on gloves or get changed, I just beat the shit out of the punch bag in front of me, my knuckles have turned crimson red but I honestly couldn't care less..

After about an hour I get a quick shower and change out of my clothes not bothered going to wrap my hands up, I head into the bull pen, only to find Deeks sat there no one else. 'Were are Sam and Callen?' I ask. 'Lunch, they've gone to get Pizzia should be back any minute' he responds looking up form the paper work on his desk. 'God Kens what have you done?' He asks standing up to check my knuckles. 'I could ask you the same thing' I say cheekily nodding towards his hands that look as bad as mine.'well I guessed where both screwed up people' he says with a sigh, pulling me towards the back of the lockers getting a first aid kit. 'I guess so' is all I say. We sit down on the couch and I wrap his hands up first as his where worse then mine.
'How are you kens?' He asks.
'Well I barely got any sleep last night and by the looks of your eyes, you never either' I say.
'Touché' is all he says with a glum look on his face.
'Thanks fern' he says and I slap his shoulder. We both laugh and I pass him my hands to patch up. He stops briefly, and I look up at him, we both lean in and our lips cone together as one. My stomach is jumping up and down with butterflies and I can't help but wonder why this never happened with Jack. Every ounce of love and compassion I tried to put in that kiss and I hope he felt it too. For a minute we are in our own little bubble of love and treasure, I pull away and look at Deeks, 'sorry, I just had to get that out my system' he says a little breathless. He continues to wrap my hands up and neither of us speak. Processing our first kiss not undercover. I refused to speak as I feared my voice would break, I knew if he spoke I'd just want to finish what we started.

Callens POV a few hours earlier

'What do you thinks up with them two?' I ask Sam, first Deeks cones in looking all types of miserable, liked he's had zero sleep and cried for 5 hours straight. Then Kensi looking the exact same, the second Deeks sees her he bolts to the gym. 'Honestly I don't know, couples fight all the time' Sam says stressed. ' but there not a couple, as far as we know there's nothing going on between them, there just partners and really close friends' I say confused. 'Sometimes true love is blind' is all Sam says and continues looking at paperwork. ' I don't like this, they both seem really off' I say to sam heading towards Deeks desk. Luckily, he left his phone, so I put my special agent skills to work, hoping to find something indicating why they were so of this morning. 'G, don't, it's there private lives' sam pleads, 'yeah private lives that lead to them both disappearing.' I say back.
I unlock Deeks phone and reveal his hand screen, a picture of him and Kensi undercover, he must have gotten it off the person surveilling them, I have to admit they look pretty damn cosy. A/n see pick at top. I go to his text messages to find Kensi contact, no surprise last one messaged. 5 unread messages of 'bad ass Blye' I decide to look through I mean it can't hurt. I scroll back to the last conversation, yesterday afternoon, between finding the sleeper cell and us leaving that night, they texted each other at least 20 times.

B-Deeks
I -Kensi

Gonna miss our undercover op bestie 😝⭐️xx
Same here, movie nights where the bomb lol😂😭👊🏻xx
Ino fern, Ino.😂😘x
Don't call me fern imagine me punching you right now 😩👊🏻x
You love the nickname fern 😩💪🏻x
Do not x
Yes you do X I can see you smiling and rolling your eyes from here😝😘x
In your dreams lover boy😂😭👊🏻x
All the times darlin' all the time x
You disgust me😂😂x
Do I tho? Do I? 😭😂x
Yup, yup u definitely do 😂🙄x
Hell, the past few weeks have been the best of your life, you loved waking up with me everyday x😌
It was comforting that's all shaggy x

I stopped reading after that, there both head over heals for each other, its blatantly obvious, there flirting disguised as bickering, the kisses they shared undercover to wind sam n I up.'Read  that' is all I say to sam, and he does so. 'Let's talk about this over lunch G' is all he says, texting Deeks the plan,  about 15 minutes Deeks says to get Kensi a double pepperoni and him nothing. Something's seriously not right here, Deeks never declines Pizzia, whatever happened between them to last night was extremely bad if it caused this much damage. I call nell and ask her to discreetly try and uses cctvs to find out what has happened, reluctantly she agrees and hangs up, I hope we get some answers soon.

Nells POV

Callens just asked my to spy on two of my closest friend, I track there cells and they both go straight to Deeks place after work. I locate all the audios in range of Deeks house. In the end I had to access Deeks audio of his phone. I'm not going to lie I feel horrible doing this but it's for the greater good, I suppose. I plug my headphones into my tablet and faintly can make out Kensi and Deeks conversation from last night. I was shocked. I didn't listen after I heard Deeks say the op changed us. I felt like I was invading their privacy. I'll tell callen later, right now Im going to find Kensi. I run down the stair into the bull pen and hear two voices, I instantly recognised them as Blye and Deeks, I peeked my head round the corner to find them having a make out sesh, so I leave them to it and headed back into ops pulling the cctv footage from where they have been together alone since this morning, luckily we had audio installed. I gasp at what Deeks said to Kensi this morning, no wonder they were both crying last night...

Back in the bullpen Kensis POV

After the kiss we both acted back to normal but we weren't fully normal, we could of fooled any passer byes. Sam and callen walk back into the bull pen, where Deeks and I were laughing about something or other. 'Well you two seem to be in a better mood' callen says smirking, Deeks and I stiffen up and look down at the ground. 'Care to tell us wha-' sam begins to say but was cut off by nell 'G come here please' is what she said and hurriedly went back into ops. Callen runs up the stairs into ops full of concern. 'Whats that about?' I ask Sam.
'He asked nell to do him a favour before, that's all I know' sam says looking guilty.
'Kens' Deeks says full of concern, 'yeah?' I say growing concern and becoming uneasy. 'Gym, now please!' Is all he says his face going paler by the minute. I follow him out of the bullpen and into the gym. 'What up Deeks your scaring me' I say placing a friendly hand on his chest for support. 'You no our kiss before?' He asks me looking into my eyes. 'Yes' I croak out. 'Someone saw us, and someone has gone through our messages...' 'shit' was all I could say..