hey guys...i want to be honest with you...
im not okay right now, i dont know if anything will be the same
i know its strange, and dumb to confide in internet friends, with something you dont even tell your in person friends, but i feel like i can trust you guys, and youre pretty much all i have
i know, i know, i sound really ridiculous right now, but, lately ive just been feeling worse and worse
i used to have depression
im not making fun of it, im not trying to get attention, im just trying to get help
i thought i was doing better, that i was fine, but every once in a while, i get reminded of how i felt, and i just lose it
i was just playing a game with my friends, and a while ago, we had gotten 2 dogs in the game, and we named them to be syncronized, and they were supposed to be the main couple among the dogs, i know, it sounds dumb
so i left for a couple hours, cuz my mom told me to get off the computer
when i got back, my friends had put one of the first dogs in the "couple" with another dog, and i know it doesnt really matter and it was just a game, but i thought of the dog who had been left as me
the thing that caused my depression was the fact that i felt alone. that no one was there for me, and that no one cared
i tried to speak for the dog, saying how it was probably the sad one, but they didnt care, it was like speaking to walls
i decided to let it go, seeing as i was just being a baby about it, but right after, one of my friends started talking to the other about something, acting like i wasnt there
i felt like i was alone again, and i just left, thinking they would message me, asking if i was ok, but they clearly didnt care, becuz they didnt
i know im being just completely dumb and a complete baby, but i just need some emotional support right now, i dont want to go back to where i once was, i know im being foolish, and i should just apologize for being annoying, but i just cant
im sorry for bothering you with this random thing, but at least ive stopped crying, knowing that someone will read this
thank you, for listening to this dumb story
"The stars sometimes allign, and there's nothing that looks more beautiful, except for one thing. Sometimes, one star falls, making the sky change, and although some might not notice, there will always be one person who does. And the one who notices, will see the one star that fell, and the star will be seen, among all the others, even if it's less bright, but the smile on that star's shall light up the sky. That smile, is the most beautiful."
I know that little message was dumb, but i liked it, and i hope that message helps you, and gives you hope, for a better time
ill cya later guys, thanks for everything <3
