It's moments like these when I realize that I need to get my life together.
I've been falling behind on schoolwork, my ADHD is getting worse, so is my social anxiety, and I'm just feeling bad about everything I do
Some guy I've known for a while and played video games with recently asked me to become his girlfriend.
The only reason is so he can brag that he has a girlfriend, it doesn't even have to be me. He just doesn't want it to be a girl from his school
I rejected him. It's not like it mattered to him.
Besides, I like someone else.
Oh, and have I told you about my friend? His name is Chase.
Apparently he has a girlfriend. And he's younger than most of my friends, and we're all single af
You may be wondering, why are you posting this?
It's cuz I've really been needing motivation to keep getting up in the morning. Motivation to get my life back together.
I've recently been seeing my crush with some other girl.
He doesn't care about me.
I walk to school and back, and almost get hit by cars daily. He doesn't do anything. He stays silent.
He doesn't care.
But I do.
I don't care if he doesn't like me, I'll try to be happy for him. If he is happy and smiling, I'll force on a smile.
But that doesn't mean I won't be hurting.
I've recently been writing a song on my feelings on life right now.
Comment down below if you want me to post the lyrics.
Anyway, I'm sorry if I don't update for a while. I have to get my life together, and I have Reston and finals to do.
Stay strong for me. I'll try my best to fix my life. I'll post as soon as I can. :)
