I Can't (Pinescone Ouran Highschool Host Club AU)

Chapter 14

MONDAY

Wirt's P.O.V.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't embarrassed by what happened on Friday. It took the whole weekend to settle down over such a little thing, and it was such a hassle to hide it from Greg and Auntie.

It was Monday now, and you'd think I would go and face it. But no. Its time to hide it from people who already know.

***

Trying to avoid the Host Club before lunch was surprisingly easy. I had first period with Mabel, and nothing with Dipper. The other host members didn't know or care to know what had happened Friday anyway.

In first period, Mabel only asked me, "you okay?" In which I just shrugged, giving the silent message to her that I did not want to socialize with her.

I knew sooner or later, I would have to talk to them. But for now, I needed to do work. Homework, and club work. Beatrice, my most common customer, would be here to see me again.

***

During third period, the intercom went on, and Mabel's voice flooded the school. "Mabel Pines here to announce there is no Host Club at lunch today. I repeat, no Host Club at lunch today. Thank you." And with that, the brunettes presence was gone.

A sigh of relief lifted the weight of nervousness off my shoulders. Good, I don't need to avoid that today. It's done for me.

Greg had some friends he was going to eat lunch with today, so I am not going to lie that that made me feel a little lonely.

When I decided to go to my locker to put my books away, I found two notes.

One from Beatrice,

Hey Wirt,

I would love to have lunch with you today! Meet me outside if you like.

~Beatrice

And the other from Dipper.

Wirt...
I would like to make amends today. I'm sorry. Meet me on the first floor if you aren't mad. -Dipper

So, I had two options. Go to someone I'm mad at for lunch, make the other feel bad, or go to someone that makes me sick, and make the other feel bad.

I was too nice of a person to decide not to go see either.

I closed my locker, and went to the place my mad brain took me.

***
Dipper's P.O.V

After about ten minutes of waiting, I sighed, figuring out he was probably too mad to come around, so I packed my things and decided to take a self tour around the school. Even though I know every inch by heart.

It's not like I had a chance with Wirt anyway. He's... probably never going to be happy with me. He might even find a way to leave the Host Club.

What Mabel did for me was nice, cancelling club today, and going out of her way to set up lunch, but... it was all for nothing, sadly.

And worse, my anxiety clouded back into my mind. Anxiety and depression had me chained up during Bill, and me just liking another guy made me know it was going to come back, and chain me hostage, and whisper in my ear all the bad things that would go wrong if I liked someone.

I decided to believe them, when I saw what I saw.

I wasn't spying, but from an outside hallway, I saw Beatrice and Wirt, together. Laughing, smiling, blushing.

And that's when it hit me, that Wirt was straight. He liked Beatrice, and she obivously liked him back. He will never like me.

Never.

And that's when I also realized I was crying. Staring at him and crying. That wasn't so good.

I couldn't let him see me like this, so I started running.

Grasping onto my backpack and running. Down the hall, into building #3 and into the Janitor's closet.

After locking the door, I decided to call Mabel.

First call- no answer.

I tried again.

Second call- no answer.

Third call, I was about to give up, but right when my finger hovered over the end call button, Mabel's reassuring voice came into my left ear.

"Dip-Dip?"

"Oh... hi M-Mabel..."

"I'm kind of busy here- wait, what's wrong? Are you crying?"

"No! It's okay, go back to whatever you were doing."

"It's not important anymore. What's wrong?"

I sighed. There wasn't any use hiding it from her. "Wirt."