Yet another sleepless night, one of these days I will end up passing out from the lack of sleep. But, its hard to sleep when you have so much on your mind and are having a small debate with yourself on what you should do about things that are going on in your life.
Though, its obvious that I am only to lose more sleep with what's going on, decisions are going to have to be made. By me, by Sam, by everyone. And I know, when I do decide, either way everything is going to be different "Hey, Mikayla" Emily said in a happy voice.
I looked at her and gave her a small smile "Hey, what's up?" I replied, I feel kind of bad for Emily, she is always so busy, the pack always comes over and even when they aren't over. She is doing something around the house, like cleaning.
"Well, I was just about to head out to do some shopping, you should come with me, you need some girl time and to get away from all this" Emily suggested while smiling "You have been to stressed lately it will be good for you to get away" She added.
I bit my lip slightly "Emily, I really don't want to sound mean,but. Shopping isn't really my thing, it used to be Jess' thing, I never really went unless she dragged me" I explained, frowning slightly at the mention of Jess, it still hurt to know she was gone for good.
"Come on, it will be fun, besides. We have to pick up your dress for the wedding and see if it fits" Emily tried, crap, I forgot. Sam and Emily's wedding is next week, I am so not ready for yet another wedding, let alone being in one.
I stayed silent for a moment "Fine, but I cant promise that it will make me more relaxed" I sighed in defeat, there is no point in saying no if I am just going to be sitting around doing nothing, why not just get it over with for now.
After awhile, we were still in the car. I don't know where exactly where we were going, but I honestly don't care "Have you thought of going back to your mothers place?" Emily asked, speaking for the first time since we left the house.
I looked at her and sighed "I have thought about a lot of things, and I still have to decide what I want to do about the things I thought of. But that was one of the things I thought of, now that Jacob is back, I cant leave. I am not doing that again" I said and crossed my arms slightly
"But, if you are unhappy here, why not go? Jake can always vist you" Emily suggested, I shut my eyes for a brief moment and sighed once again. She is not making me angry or anything, its just a touchy subject to talk about but I still can talk about it.
"Because, sometimes leaving is worse then staying." I mumbled and looked away from her "And, I told Jacob some things that I probably should of waited to tell him, and though he pissed me off after I told him, I cant leave him afterwards" I added.
"What did you tell him?" Emily asked curiously, I stayed silent for a moment and I went to open my mouth, only to close it right away. Emily seemed to notice my hesitation "If you want, you can talk about it later, or not at all." She suggested, I looked at her with a thankful smile.
We got out of the car once we parked in front of the dress shop, and as we walked in, I felt sick to my stomach, so many dresses. I followed Emily up to the counter, I cant wait to get this over with "Hello, how can I help you?" A familiar voice asked, sounding slightly bored and the female behind the counter turned around "Mikayla, hey" She added with a grin
"Hey, Alex" I replied, I didn't expect to see her today " Didn't realize you worked at a dress shop, quite surprising actually." I added, she shrugged and grinned again, I had a feeling that she was just as surprised I was here in a dress shop.
"Oh, so you two know each other?" Emily asked with a smile as well, she handed Alex what looked like a receipt from her purse. If I didn't feel sick to my stomach before, I sure do now, can someone just shoot me now and get it over with?
"Yeah, we go to the same school, and by the way. Sorry if what I said made you upset, didn't know it would Mikayla" Alex replied and glanced down at the paper,a amused looked stretched across her face. She turned around and ran her hands cross some dress bags that hung on the rack behind her, she grabbed a black bag which only made me more nervous "Here" She said still amused "By the way, are you two sisters? "She added.
I mentally groaned as I took the bag "Thanks" I said with a hint of sarcasm to my voice "And not quite, she is almost my sister-in law" I corrected, and gave her a quick kill me know look. With only made her look like she was holding back a laugh.
"Mikayla, go try it on and come out and show us. I really want to see how you look in it" Emily said happily, the look on Alex's face only made me more and more nervous, like she knew something I didn't. I really hope I don't throw up on the dress..
"Yeah, Mikayla, go try it on" Alex agreed still trying not to laugh " I would love to see you in it as well" She said, this time not managing to hold back a laugh. I shot her a death glare and turned to the dressing rooms with the dress bag still in my hands.
As I shut the door behind me, I bit my lip roughly before touching the zipper of the bag. I reluctantly opened it, my eyes grew wide and I just wanted to scream, its pink, its a pink dress. I cant stand pink, I absolutely hate it more than any other color.
I reluctantly put the dress on, I took one look in the mirror and shook my head. The style isn't that bad, but its just bad because its a bright like fuchsia pink. I ran a hand through my hair and sighed, I opened the door with my hands sightly curled.
The look on Alex's face when she saw me made me was to go over that and slap her "Its pink!" She choked out with a laugh " Pink, I honestly never pictured you in it" She added now trying to hold back a laugh, so I just shot her another death glare.
"Just shut up Alex" I snapped, and then looked at Emily "And, Emily." I began making my voice more gentle "I really hate pink, but since its your's and Sam's wedding, and I love you. I will wear it" I said with honesty, I knew it would make Sam happy as well.
When we got back, everyone from the pack was there, which is going to be what I have decided like a suicide in front of everyone. I bit my lip slightly and look at Sam " Sam, can I talk to you, I don't care where it is, but I have something important to tell you" I said keeping my voice calm.
Everyone looked at me, this was going to make it even harder" Especially since Seth and Jacob are in the room "What is it?" Sam asked, I sighed slightly. Seth had a concerned look on his face, Quil looked curious of what I was going to say.
"There is no easy way to say this" I began, my heart was beating faster than I thought nearly healthy. I kept quiet for a moment "Well" I hesitated,my hands were now shaking the slightest bit from being so nervous " I am leaving the pack"
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Wolves Before Dawn
Fanfiction(Sequel to howl for the eclipse)Its been almost five months since the battle and Mikayla has completely recovered from her injuries, And Jacob is gone, Which left Mikayla confused and hurt. And with the death of Jess still lingering over her, For...
