Honestly I been out for I don't know a month or two and all that time passed by a bliss and I am happy to say that I am clean now. I think I am honestly.
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It was one party where I remember it all went down the line for me. Someone had put something in my drink or was it in the punch bowl ? I honestly do not remember all I know is I had fallen in love with the feeling that was brought upon me. So I asked for more and more and spent most of my money in this little things in life and temporally highs. But once your hooked your hooked and I began to steal money from my dads wallet and I began to save every penny and spend every single penny I had on the highs. But eventually people start noticing it physically. The way you lose weight and do not want to eat.
I could not ignore the look my father gave me. He told me he was disappointed in himself and not me. But why? I remember asking him and he just shook his head. He told me he had promised my mother that I would be a good girl. I hugged him and told him it was not his fault. Everything I did, it was because I chose to do so.
I remember smiling at him when I walked in my rehab clinic the first time. It was not an overnight stay but I did have to stay there the whole day. From 6am to 8pm. No time for parties they told me just to sleep. The good thing was that this was during the summer. I had gotten straight A's again who knows how? I mean I must confess I am a smart cookie but I do not want to overhype it.
I was able to out smart my therapist and leave in 2 weeks not the 2 months my psychiatrist requested. Good behavior I guess. A smile could go a long way to be honest.
I was able to leave just in time to prepare for my senior year. Wow junior year went by in a flash.
I remember me smoking joints behind the gym with my cousin and chillin like there was no tomorrow. I remember all the boy drama but I was high on something the whole time so if I told you I loved you well then I am sorry but that was not me.
I just do not understand why boys expect you to love them? We are so young and it is the golden age to experiment but we are required to love at some point.
But then again I do not understand a lot of things. Like why do we have to go to school to be successful? Why do we need to be something fancy in life like a nurse and make make more than 50 k a year to achieve happiness.
But I did not know that my life was able to be changed forever either.
