Why is it that I am afraid of love?
Well, there is rejection. Maybe I am fragile.
I have been hurt before.
Good things are not meant to last forever.
Because love just really hurts.
So when I met him I had my doubts. He was just so perfect and treated me so well.
But I just could never have enough of him. He made me feel things. Things that I never felt before. I never felt this passionate about something like this.
So every day I saw him for long periods of time and short periods too.
Every day he treated me like a queen and every day I fell for him more.
He was just amazing.
The way his eyes looked like they glowed and changed colors. From hazel to green to golden.
But always in the back of my head, I thought. What if he breaks my heart?
So that one Monday we had a date by the river I bought us ice cream. We were joking around as we sat on a bench and relaxed. I licked the ice cream off your lips and you groaned and kissed me.
Every time we kissed it was like fire and we did not pay attention to the wrong around us anymore.
But that day was special because you gifted me a ring. You always wore rings that was your style. You were probably more stylish than me. Because you prefered the Harry Styles type of style and I was an I just woke up style. Another issue I was insecure about.
But you always told me I looked perfect.
So that one Monday from all that kissing we forgot about the big tub of ice cream and went to your car excitedly. We could not deny the sexual attraction we had for each other and I was scared you were going to leave after the deed was done.
We headed to the woods behind the golf course and the sun was already down at this time so nobody could see us.
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We kissed and moulded our bodies perfectly. It was like we were made for each other.
I could feel your eyes exploring my body and kissing every inch of it. I could see the stars above the tree's branches and the cool air made the experience more meaningful. The way I kissed your neck and made you moan turned me on more. The way I bit your lips made you crazy.
Soon enough our clothes were off and you positioned yourself between my legs. I felt a pleasurable pain as you entered me and I gasped when I could feel you so deep inside me. Every inch of you was made for me and I loved it.
I needed you at that moment so bad. I still do every second.
When we both came we laid there breathless and holding each other. And I turned to smile at you.
"Come on let's go my dad is going to kill me," I said staring into your beautiful eyes. You laughed and kissed my forehead.
As we made our way back to your car you suddenly grabbed my waist and made me face you.
"Look there is something I want to ask you but I never did this before so I am kinda nervous."
"What's up come on do not be a pussy." I laughed and kissed your cheek.
"Would you give me the privilege of calling you mine?" I smiled and hugged you.
"Of course I was waiting for you to ask me!" I kissed you and kissed you for hours that night.
05/01/16
