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CHAPTER SEVENTEEN | WEDDING DRESSES

Most people aren't in a hurry to get married anymore. ... Marriage can seem like an outdated institution, and some people don't want that.

|Shaniece|

"Do you guys need to have another wedding?" I asked Stephanie as I was trying on my bridesmaid dress.

"Yes, I mean no, but we want to celebrate our love with our family and friends. Plus, I think this might motivate Brock to propose to you or at least start thinking about marriage." Stephanie said.

I rolled my eyes.

"Steph, I don't want to get married. I am not ready for that." I said.

"God, you sound like john Cena; I mean, you, how can you not want to get married?" She asked.

"I never really saw myself getting married. I still don't see myself getting married. I love Brock, but if he asked me to marry him, I would say no." I replied.

Stephanie threw a pillow at me. I don't see why she doesn't understand why I don't want to be married.

"How do I look?" I asked.

"Like you should be getting married

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"Like you should be getting married." She said.

"That's not the answer I'm looking for," I said.

"Sigh, you look gorgeous. I think you need to think this whole marriage thing over again because I don't want it to break Brock and you up." She said.

As a woman, you hear the question a lot. Especially when you're happy, and you've been with someone for a significant amount of time, and most people around you believe it's the next logical step.

You hear the question, even more when you have a child, and you didn't follow an order of life choices society has pre-determined for couples.

I wish she would understand Marriage isn't a missing piece in my life puzzle, and marriage isn't what my family needs to feel complete.

And it isn't because I believe in making some political statement or don't believe in the institution or find the overall cost excessive. I've stood by best friends at their weddings, and I'll stand by more in the future, and each time I will be filled with love and hope and the best of wishes.

But marriage isn't for me.

"Marriage won't be the reason we break up, and if it is, then I won't be upset because I can't stop him from leaving because that would mean I'm holding him back from his happiness," I said.

"I still don't understand. Why don't you want to get married." She said.

"I've seen too many husbands take their wives for granted. They believe their relationship doesn't require any additional work or effort, or consideration because there's a ring on someone's finger and a title in front of a changed name. While comfort turns to complacency. I don't want to marry Brock because I don't want a husband. I want a partner." I said.

"And all too often, marriage is used as a way to find a partnership, instead of a way to celebrate one that already exists. And while I know that not all husbands are anything like what I've described, too many are. While I'm privileged to know some amazing married couples, I also know too many that are exactly like what I've described. They're knee-deep at the beginning of a divorce, or they live miserable, almost completely separate lives." I said.

"Okay, I understand, but I still want you to think about it or at least talk to Brock about it." She said.

But if he does get down on one knee and presents a ring and asks me that question, so many women wait a lifetime to be asked, I will probably say yes. I'll say yes to it all, with him, knowing that I won't be saying yes to a fancy wedding or a fairytale marriage.

I won't be saying yes to a husband.

I'll be saying yes to a partner.

I'll be saying yes to something I already have.

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