~Short Entries like a diary~

~Thanksgiving~

11/24/16
I am thankful for a lot of things, I am happy I get to hang out with my cousins and see some of my family members from my moms side of the family...
But one think I felt when I am sat at that table, was eyes on me. I feel like I live in a world where people still judge me on the past...I feel like people still look at me like that girl back when I was 14, when I did mistakes with people that I am with right now...like I see the eyes when they look at me and I think they give me glares and try to stay away from me...I know I don't talk a lot, but I get nervous and I think that's why I don't see my cousins a lot is the mistakes I made when I was young. It's like they think I will do it again, like we barely see them and I think I know why. I feel like they just don't let it go...I feel like I scare people away because I am not like most girls. The things that happened to me make me who I am right now. I feel like people don't like that, I know I am different, but I am happy. I feel like people will never stop judging me on my past, but trust me when I get my license I will drive or do whatever I can to see my cousins and I don't care if people judge me on my past when I was 14. It's like they don't trust me anymore, it's like they think I will do it again. They are like cameras, they watch my every move...I am trapped...people stare at me...laugh at me...and forever judge me...