~Short Entries like a diary~

~Unwanted~

As I walk down the halls of the horrible school I go to, I think about all the teenagers that are actually having a great time coming to this dump of a place. The people that laugh and joke around, the people that have a lot of friends that care about them. Then there is me a person that has friends but it seems like they are slowly fading away from my life. The ones that no longer walk with me that much and the ones that look at me and smile but walk away like I did something to them. The ones that I was friends with for 2 years but they just don't say a single word to me. All of that work to try to build their trust and they all just disappeared. The ones that been there sense the beginning, the friends that I also fell in love with. Some of them friends were guys that I couldn't control my feelings for. Now it just all blew up in my face, my so called friends are gone. I see familiar faces as I walk slowly down the hall avoiding bumping into people. I try to hide my emotions by putting a fake smile on my face. I see people smiling and waving at me, only if they knew how badly they hurt me. Only if they knew what goes on in my head. My true best friend, we talk but it's awkward now sense I started to grow feelings for him. We dated and now it's awkward because the things didn't work out. He is so different now, I feel like he no longer cares about me. I can't wait to leave this place, I can't wait to leave and never come back. Once this school year is over I don't have to see these faces for a while so I can take sometime to control my feelings to these so called "friends".