Smudged lines || Jc Caylen

[11]

I'm even more miserable than I was before. I've been having too many anxiety attacks.

It been getting worse, it doesn't get better for me, it never did, and probably never will.

I told Jc, I told him, everything. I told him about Amanda. I can't even call her mom anymore. I don't even know who to call mom, or even dad. I
don't know if one of them is my real parent, or none of them are. I don't even know who my real parents are.

Why didn't they just told me?

I'm laying there, in his muscular, tattooed arm. With him whispering the cutest, and most relaxing words and sayings ever. No one knew how to calm me, except him. He has his own ways, He was different.

2:27 am.

I snuggled into his bare chest , he hugged me tighter. I love it when he does that, every time I move or fix my position, he hold me tighter and closer to him. I felt safe.

"Do you wanna go to school, or skip?" Jc asked out of nowhere, with his raspy sleepy voice.

I turn to him, facing him. I laughed of his cuteness. His eyes was closed, he's having a conversation with me while he's half asleep.

"What?" He opened his eyes.

"Nothing, silly. Just close your eyes and talk to me, it's cute." I giggled.

"Oh so you're saying I'm cute?" He smirked. "Shut up." I rolled my eyes.

"Um, I wanna go to school." He looked at me weirdly. "I wanna clear my mind off things,"

"Plus I miss Skyler." I pout.

"Oh don't do that shit, you tryna turn me on?" He sighed.

"Shut up and just, uh I don't know, Pull me closer." I sighed too.

"In the backseat of my rover?" He smirked.

"You have a jeep, silly." I shook my head.

*Alarm*

I felt some type of skin against my cheeks. My head was layed on Jc's chest, while he hugged my waist.

I tried to get up and get ready, but Jc pulled me back. I giggled.

"Stay!" He whined.

"We have to get ready." I pulled back some hair that was all over his face.

"Ten more minutes."He mumbled.

"Two."

"Five." He mumbled again. "Fine." I gave in.

I drew some weird shapes on his chest. "What if someone from your family saw us?" I asked.

Jc laughed, A little bit too much.

"Did that sound too funny to you?" I rolled my eyes.

"Babe," He smiled, with his eyes still closed.

"I live with Kian, my family's in texas."

"Kian? Kian Lawley?" He nodded.

"The, Kian Lawley? From chemistry and English and Art?" I asked, so confused.

"Yes babe." He chuckled. "Why?"

"I don't know, I never saw you guys together."

"Five minutes are over, let's go now."

"Hoe! I came over to your house this morning to pick you up, and you weren't there, any explanation?" Skyler ranted.

I took my Chemistry book from my locker and slammed the door. "I went to Jc's."

Skyler smirked at me. "Sky, we didn't-"

"Bow chicka wow wow." She did a dirty dance thing.

"Fuck off, Sky!" I sighed annoyingly.

I turned and saw Jc closing his locker. "Hey El-" I cut him off, by grabbing his arm and pulling him to the opposite direction.

"Let's get to Chemistry." I spat, with no emotions or face expression. I was feeling a bit grumpy.

"Someone's in a bad mood?" Jc smiled, as soon as we sat on the chairs.

I sighed. "Today's not my day." I placed my head on the table.

"I told you to skip school."

"I should've listened."

From dad:
Hey sweetie , please come home after school , I'll explain everything. I love you , have a good day in school x

"Should I?" I looked at Jc, who was reading the text.

"I think you should." He nodded.

"Let's see what the future holds."

I was greeted by Mercy as soon as I opened the front door.

"Hey Mercy." I bend down to her level and started petting her.

"Hey, El." I heard dad's deep voice say.

"H-Hey," I didn't know if I should call him dad.

He placed his hands in his front pocket of his jeans, and sighed, looking down after.

"Sit down." He points to the small couch, then sitting on the couch across it.

I was having a little, panic attack. I was scared to know the truth, but I want to know it so badly.

"So," Dad spoke.