The Stars, The Moon, And You

Let It Be

    I slam my books onto the table. It makes a satisfying thud and Ben looks up at me with wide eyes.
   
    Since I met him I realized that he was in almost every class I had and we became good friend despite the awkwardness. He was nice and had gotten past the fact that he liked me. I think we were better off as friends anyway.

    "What makes you this moody?" he asks as i flop down and scowl at him. He's working on  doodling some dinosaurs onto the desk.

    "Susan." I huff. Adding a frowny face to one of the dinosaurs.

    Ben copies it's frown and raises his eyebrows. "What did she do?"

    "She can just be a jerk sometimes." My voice broke. My anger had decided to fade into sadness.. Susan had left her house, screaming something unintelligible at her parents. She sat on the bus this morning. Obviously sad, obviously hurt. Instead of talking to me she had ignored me. She shoved her earbuds in her ears and didn't even say hi. When I pulled out one of her earbuds she had glared at me. For some reason, that hurt. The only other person who had ever glared at me like that was... Was not a great person.

    "Sorry." Ben says. He draws another dinosaur.

I smile at him. "It's going to be fine." I honestly don't know if this is true. This is the first time I have ever really been properly mad at Susan. It's a weird feeling.

I wish she would talk to me more. I talk to her about what was on my mind usually... sometimes... Okay maybe not too much but still. Some things are better to forget than to talk about.

Biology went by fast. It always did. It's not that I love the class. I actually kind of hate it, I think there is some sort of time warp at that point in the day.  I barely listen to my teacher in English. After Earth science I stand by my locker, where I usually meet Susan before lunch.

A couple minutes pass, I'm about to walk away when she shows up. Her eyes are sad but she's smiling. "Hey."

I don't waste time with greetings.  "Susan."  I reach out to take her hand.  "What's wrong?" She snaps it back, making my anger spark up again.

"Nothing." Her voice is cold.

"Nothing?" I snap. "It doesn't seem like it. I'm here for you Susan, you know that." anger bubbles in my throat. It burns, but I let it stay.

"I told you, it's nothing, Lee. Get out of my business!" Susan snaps back, her voice is tired and hoarse.

"Don't lie to me." I'm almost yelling.

She spins on her heel and stomps away without me... I don't see her at lunch.
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    I tap my desk nervously. I'm in the middle of my pre calc class, but I can't listen to a word the teacher, a thin woman that looked like she never slept, said.

    I raise my hand and excuse myself to the restroom. I need to clear my head, forget about this whole thing. Susan would eventually tell me. That's how it always was with us. Things happened but in the end it was always... perfect. We'd never argued before though. This was weird.

    I stare in the mirror. I needed to cut my hair, my face was too round, and I was too thin. I sighed, splashing some water onto my face.

    I heard something softly. Crying? No, why would someone be crying? A sob rang out, giving the crier away.

    I walk past stalls, glancing under them until I see someone sitting up against the door. I sit against the other side.

    "Hey." I say.
   
    Sniffles.