Real- A Katniss and Peeta fanfic

Chapter ~1~

A.N.-OK so this is my first story on here so take it easy on me!;) I will try not to take to long to update but I probably won't every day. This is set after the rebellion, and basically just shows what i think would have happened to Peeta and Katniss. Sorry to all Gale fans but this is totally Everlark! Ok so vote and comment and tell me what you think!
Also I DO NOT own any of these characters or any part of her books it is all owned by Suzzane Collins!!!

Katniss POV

It's been about a month. A month since I killed Coin. A month since Snow died. A month since her-I stop myself from thinking about her quickly because I know I will have another break down if I don't.
I was the face of the rebellion, their Mocking Jay. The rebellion ended president Snow's reign. And the Hunger Games. I was in the Games twice. During the 74th annual games, and the second Quarter Quell.Ugh, why am I thinking about this?

I go into the kitchen in my house in Victors Village. I hate it here. All alone and constantly reminded of her. Everywhere I look I see Prim-I have to stop thinking like this!

I start rummaging through the fridge trying to find something to eat. I finally find some roast beef and I decide to make a sandwich. I start looking through the cupboard for some bread. I find a loaf of wheat and I get myself a couple of slices. I subconsciously start spreading some mayo on the bread, my mind trying to think of what I should do today.
I finish my sandwich and decide I should probably go check up on Haymitch. He isn't much but he's all i have here with me now.

I go up to my room to find my dad's old leather jacket. It's fall and it's starting to get a little chilly. Besides, It reminds me of him and it makes me feel better every time I put it on.

I walk over to Haymitch's and knock on the door. He doesn't answer so I let myself in. Haymitch was a victor in the second quarter quell, and he drowns out all the nightmares and flash backs with alcohol. As usual he's passed out in his chair. I decide to just leave him today and not disturb him. I usually wake him up and make sure he's doing ok, but right now I just don't have the energy.

I walk back home and go back upstairs. I decide to take a nap for a while since the nightmares kept me up most of the night. I take off my shoes and jacket and lay down in my bed. in a matter of minutes I doze off.

The loud ring of the phone wakes me from my deep slumber. It's so hard to sleep when I'm constantly haunted by the nightmares. I haven't gotten a call since I've been back, and I wonder who it could be. I soon think of my mother, or Gale. Now I am scared to answer because I don't know what I could say to either without thinking about-I stop myself right there and decide I just need to answer it.

Ugh, the one time I need it I can't find the thing! I search frantically as it rings on. The second I find the thing it goes straight to voice mail. I curse under my breath knowing who ever called is probably now worried about me.

That's when I hear it. His voice on the answering machine. I nearly faint right there. The voice on the other end makes me stop dead.
It's Peeta.


Peeta POV

Finally! I finally got the news I had been waiting on for so long! I get to leave! I get to go back to District 12! That is, if Katniss wants me to. I am really nervous that she won't want me to come back. I ask my nurse for a phone, so that I can call her.

Katniss. She has occupied my thoughts constantly theses past weeks. Every where I look I see her. I miss holding her in my arms at night. I know she might not want me to come back because after The Capitol tortured me and Hijacked me, I tried to strangle her. I hate the stupid Capitol so much for contorting all my memories of her. Of the beautiful Katniss Everdeen. The Girl On fire. I know if she says I can't come back and be near her it will break me completely,and forever, but I know that I must put her happiness first.

The nurse brings me a phone, which she informs me is recording the conversation so the doctors can listen to it. At first it makes me mad because this should be a private call between me and Katniss, but I do realize that it is necessary. I quickly dial her number, which I have memorized by heart. The phone rings for a couple of minutes and the waiting is killing me. Soon the answer machine beeps. And I quickly must decide what to say.

"Hello! Katniss? It's...it's Peeta. Look, I know you might not want to talk to me ever agin, and if so that's ok, I understand. I just called to tell you some news I just got. Their letting me go! And, er, well, I was wondering if it would be ok with you if I came back to 12? I totally understand if you don't want me to. Just call the hospital and tell them what you want, I just want you to be happy. I know this is really sudden, but, if it is ok with you of course, I'm coming tonight." I pause fighting with myself in my head about wether or not to add this last part, and I finally decide to just say it. "and Katniss, I still love you."

Katniss POV

I listen to Peeta 3 times before what he says finally sinks in. He's coming back. Tonight! Of course, only if I am Ok with it. I decide that I am and I call the hospital to tell them my decision.

I suddenly realize just how much I miss The Boy With The Bread. He was my rock. Before the hijacking. I realize how much i loved him sleeping with his arms around me, trying to protect me from the whole world. From everything. Some nights he succeeded, but on others the nightmares still came. Although, even on those nights he was still there to comfort me.

I think about what he said. At the end. I still love you. Does he? Then I ask myself do I love him? I realize, for now anyways, loving anyone is to painful.

I realize it was never pretend for Peeta. From that first time when he confessed to Ceaser, and the whole world, his love for me. To in the arena both times. I realize he has always loved me. And then, once agin, I am reminded of just how much I don't deserve him.

I start preparing for his arrival. I decide to make spaghetti for dinner since it's one of the few edible things that i can actually cook, and he won't have any food at his house.

I go upstairs and take a quick shower before putting on a sunset orange dress,his favorite color. I put on just a little natural looking make up. Then, instead of putting my hair in its normal braid, I leave it down, so it flows softly down my back. I find the pearl he gave me during the Second Quarter Quell, and I put it in my pocket to remind me of my Peeta, in case he has changed.

I go downstairs just as I hear 3 quite eager knocks on my door, and I know it must be him. I open the door and there he is, smiling from ear to ear. His ocean blue eyes sparkling, his golden hair shining. He is wearing a casual pair of jeans, and an forest green colored button down shirt that brings out the color in his eyes. I softly blush when I realize we have both worn each other's favorite color.

Before either one of us can say anything, I run up to him and give him a huge hug.