This is Our Time.

Chapter 20.

(Zayns Pov)

"Zayn stop moping around!" Jade said.

"Shut up Jade you don't get it.."

"Then tell me.. is it Perrie or Emily?"

"Both.."

"Just start where you need to ill sit and listen"

"Well Emily was my and still is my best-friend from childhood and then one day I brought perrie over to see the family and everything and I had to help my mom with supper so I figured hey Em an Perrie can get along.."

"okay."

"And so I left them together in the room, I guess she told Emily a lot of shit an told her to get out of my life and she went out running before I came back and when I did I screamed at Emily then went to find perrie, then just a few months ago I dumped perrie for Emily, an we were good then Emily accused me of cheating on her with perrie and told me I was worthless an no one would ever love me ever again..."

"Oh my..Zayn im so sorry, is there anyway I can help? anything you need?"

"No.."

It has been 1 1/2 months since I seen the boys, or Emily or my family... I should see my family but I cant they would ask me whats wrong and I guess Emily has been by and asked where I was and left. Jade is the only one that has seen me since I got back. Perrie has convinced Jesy and Leigh-Anne that im the most horrible person on earth.. They boys have called me none stop.. I haven't picked up my phone in days. I have over 200 Missed calls, 500 Messages and 100 voicemails. I must be  missed but im not answering.

(Jades Pov)

He is so upset. Perrie is overacting with him and her. Emily is a great girl.. I know this because Liam talks non-stop about her. Him an I were best friends. I guess im the first one to actually come and see Zayn in almost 2 months, that's not good. Zayn is sitting on the couch listening to the radio. He hasn't spoken since ealier. Im starting to worry about him.. I need to talk to Emily and get things straight. I called Liam.

"Liam is Emily near?"

"Yes? Why?"

"I need to speak to her."

"Ok, EMILY PHONE!......Hello?"

"Hello Em its Jade can I ask you something?"

"Sure?"

"Why did you thi-*Say something by A Great Big World comes on an Zayn Turns it down some an sings* Just Listen to this please" I put the phone on speaker an sat on the couch next to zayn.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you.  I'll be the one, if you want me to. Anywhere, I would've followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you. And I am feeling so small.  It was over my head  I know nothing at all.  And I will stumble and fall.  I'm still learning to love  Just starting to crawl. Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. Anywhere, I would've followed you.  Say something, I'm giving up on you.  And I will swallow my pride. You're the one that I love And I'm saying goodbye. Say something, I'm giving up on you.  And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. And anywhere, I would have followed you.  Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you. Say something, I'm giving up on you.  Say something..."

"Oh my god... Zayn... Please don't give up im sorry" Zayn looked at me then the Phone.

"Wow Jade I thought I could trust you! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! NOW!" I didn't do anything tho...

"I gotta go Em, Tell Li im be over later." I hung up an got up walking to the door. "Zayn I didn't set that up it just happened..."

"Get. Out. Now!" He was crying..

(Zayns Pov)

*Month-December. Few days before Louis's Birthday.*

'It has been 4 months since I seen a living soul besides my own in the mirror.. I have lost a lot of weight its easy to see.. I cant sleep, I am broken, Heart broken.. I should go out but I cant..' I wrote in my journal that I write in every morning and every night. The boys keep calling me so does my mum but I cant talk to them... its hard to speak...speak to anyone or just in general... I have checked my voicemails and messages but haven't answered anyone. Today is just going to be like every other day.

*Some one knocks at the door* "God who is this?" I mumble as I walk to the door and lean on it.

"Who is it...."

"Its Eleanor Zayn let me an Louis in please..."

I sigh an unlock the door walking back to the couch, "Its unlocked.."

As I sat down and covered myself up with the blanket, El came running over an hugging me... I forgot how her hugs were... I hugged back instantly.

"I see you still remember where you belong as in the band* Louis said an he walked to the Radio turning it down.. I wish was playing.. I sighed an let El go an covered back up.

"Are you going to come to my party for my birthday Zayn? I don't think Em will be there.."

"I might Lou.."

"Stand up Zayn... I know your not eating Jade told me and Lou says you are to make me not worry.."

"Im not eating that's right..."

"Your going out, to his party and no more staying alone. Your gonna stay with me an Lou until your better!"

Why???? Does she hate me? I wanna be left alone! I want to cry alone! I don't wanna make anyone else worry.. But instead of saying no my mouth said something totally different.." Okay... Let me get some stuff.."  I got up and walked to my room packing clothes an some important things like pictures of the familyan one of Emily...