I wake up still feeling tired and restless, and make my way downstairs attempting to stay quiet so I won't wake up my parents or they'll beat me when I come home after school. I grab an apple because I haven't eaten since yesterday, even though I don't feel hungry, and make my way to school.
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"Hey Jenna" I say to my best friend and only friend I have, when I see her by her locker. She's the only friend I managed to get because of my Anxiety. Other girls had tried talking to me in the past, but I scared them away with my awkwardness. Now the whole school thinks I'm a freak and call me names like emo and depressed. No girl or guy ever wants to talk to me because they know that if they do, then they will be bullied and become an outcast. So Ive never had a boyfriend. Personally, I think it's pathetic that these childish things still happen since we're in eleventh grade. I think that its ridiculous to still make fun of someone or judge them, they're are all just ignorant and too scared of Karen's popularity/power that they just go along. I can't do much since every one listens to Karen and that's just how the school runs. So all I have to do is accept their bullshit.
"Have you checked Facebook?" Jenna asks and I feel like my stomach just dropped. What have they posted now? Can't they leave me alone and fuck off?
"No I haven't, why?" I ask nervously.
"Just look" She hands me her phone and I see myself kneeling in front of Karen.
"Look at the comments" she says. I tap on the comment section showing 73 comments with the caption saying 'Today Ale-sissy begging on her knees for her to be part of my crew LOL' I feel my face flush of embarrassment. On the comments there was all sorts of horrible things, a girl saying 'lmfao how could she even think that that would ever happen?' and 'Wow how pathetic does she look' and others saying 'she's used to getting on her knees'. I stop reading not wanting to see anymore. I hand her the phone.
"I'm gona go" I say and run to the bathroom wanting to be alone because I feel my anxiety rising. I run towards the bathroom feeling my eyes get watery. As soon as I open the door I see the bitch. I glare at her with anger and her evil smile changes to an angry look.
"What do you want bitch?"
"Nothing" I tell her and I instantly fill up with fear because I don't want her to see me with tears.
"No why where you glaring at me huh?" She asks getting closer to me. I feel dizzy like I'm going to explode of all the anxiety that's building up. I feel shaky and weak. I turn around open the door to get out and I get tripped and thrown out the door and fall to the ground hard. I hear laughter all around me and feel kids surrounding me. I sit up and stare at the floor keeping my focus on the ground as I start breathing hard to control myself from having a panic attack.
"Whoops did you trip?Stop being so clumsy you piece of shit" I hear Karen say. I keep my face down not wanting people to see my red face and few tears escaping my eyes.
"Aw are you crying because I said you can't be my friend?" she says and starts laughing along with everyone else.
"Hey would you leave her alone! How could you just treat her like that?" I hear the voice of a boy. But who could possibly defend me? I hear people going quiet and leaving. Next I hear the bell ring to get to class. I sigh of relief.
"bye stupid bitch" says Karen and leaves. I look up and see that about everyone is gone except for a tall skinny boy wearing a gray long sleeve, black skinnies, and a gray beanie.
"Um, hi- are you okay?" I look and him while he offers me his hand to get up and I take it.
"yeah I guess so " I say softly.
"So what happen?" He says
"It's kind of a long story" I say awkwardly.
"Oh okay, well my name is Tyler"
"Nice to meet you my name is Alesana, are you new here I haven't seen you around?" I ask
"Oh lovely name, and yeah I just transferred" He says
"Well I have to go we're kind of late" He said with a giggle. I just smile and nod, and walked the opposite way from him. I turned back around to tell him one last thing.
"Hey, Thank you for doing that for me" I say nervously while picking at the edge of my sweater.
"Yeah no problem" he says and gives a small smile.
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Another Love Story Of A Mest Up Girl
Teen Fiction*trigger warning* School is hell, and home is hell. All Alesana wanted was someone to be there for her and help her get through it all. What will happen when it's all just to much for her, and makes her way to the train tracks?
