The Eternal Sinning Of A Fangirl's Mind

Not The Originally Planned Angst Buuuuuuut...

((tfw your boyfriend doesn't rly think his feelings are all that important but ur like the #1 priority in the entire galaxy

Sorta fluffy sorta angsty?? I cannot write without it turing sad))

"We could just... cancel Christmas, you know."

The much shorter of the two looked over, a confused expression overtaking how tired she was.

It had been yet another sleepless week, sitting on the floor with cups of coffee and a blanket draped over them both, a window the size of a wall giving a gorgeous view of the stars, their half-asleep conversations filling the empty air.

"Rylo, what're you talking about? You can't just cancel a holiday."

"Wh-What I meant was it wouldn't be too hard to..." he trailed off, trying to gather his thoughts and make a sentence that actually made sense. A bittersweet smile made it's way onto his face, his green eyes glittering provided by the light of a million stars right beside them, "I won't be as ridiculous with the whole Christmas thing if it really messes with you. I-I thought I could fix it, but... I guess I'm just not made to fix things, Shadz. So I'll go back to trying not to break anything in the first place," he finished off with a sigh, taking a sip of his now-cold coffee in the sickening silence, trying to regain whatever composure he lost.

As if there was much left to lose at this point.

The demon shuffled closer to him, gingerly kissing one of the many marks on his arms, "You don't really have to do that, babe. It's the one month that you're happy, don't let stupid shit that gets me sad make you sad too."

"This is going to sound absolutely sappy but I'm going to say it– I'm not really happy if you're not happy," the blonde muttered, "I mean... before we met, everything was just a steady downhill trend the second I stepped out of that stupid machine I came from. Christmas was always kind of a reset for everything. Everyone else seemed happy, so it was more of a bandwagon thing than actually being happy because of the holiday itself. I don't get many presents, it's not like we get snow on a spacecraft, and I really only like the season as an excuse to eat cookies. In all honesty... Getting rid of Christmas would be a win-win situation for us both," Rylo explained.

Most of it was surprisingly true. He didn't really get presents or snow, but there was some unnatural cheer that came along with the season.

"What I'm trying to say is that even though everyone else is happy, I still end up feeling bad. I just..." he was obviously choking up, not even realising it, "I end up spending so much time trying to make sure everyone else is happy that I fuck myself over, but I don't care, because I'd rather wreck my own emotions before I see you as sad as I get over something like Christmas," he admitted, his voice wavering and tears having already silently escaped.

"Ry, you don't have to do all of that," she reassured him, cupping both his cheeks and wiping away his tears with her thumbs before kissing him.

"This December's gonna be better. Even if things get kinda shitty for me, it'll at least be a little better than usual, because you're gonna be here, and we're both gonna be happy. Alright?"

The blonde pulled Shadana closer, holding on like she'd disappear if he even slightly loosened his grip, managing a small "okay" as his tears were finally beginning to dry despite still being rather choked up.

And, despite it being December,

maybe they were both finally happy, even if it was just in that moment.