A Glimpse Inside my Fantasies

Love?

What is love? and I'm not talking about romance, true love with your hubby or lust, I'm talking about LOVE, I'm talking about loving someone regardless of he/she looks before or after, I'm talking about loving your son or daughter because God made you to be a father, but do you really love "them" deeply? not because of the name (son and daughters) or not because of how she use to look 10 year(s) ago.That's a hard ass question isn't it.
Like how am I suppose to love a guy for the sake of marrying them to get rid of my old ways of living?
How am I gonna force myself down the throat to love someone I don't?
Will that love grow then?
Because I heard some stories and what not...
Or how my aunt was telling me how "you marry someone based on what's inside of them. And not what's in the outside of them". Well how? What if he looks like a hawk with forks in his mouth!
What if I can never love him, and if that's the case then I'll divorce him briefly. I sound like a dick, but I will, if that's the case in the future.

Another thing is what if you have a child and that child becomes— what 17, and you lived a whole lie for 17 years forcing yourself to love that child because he/she is your child. And you're a pious, holy, loving family man or women, but yet you're living in denial, and I caught you red handed. What are you suppose to do then? If that "love" is not naturally engaged within you. then what shall he or she do now?

Dog, that's how life goes. there's a shitty cloud up there that engages with our ways of reacting to issues we face daily without our knowledge, let's be mindful.

But I'm not gonna discuss on that topic right now.
I'm focused on what LOVE is. How can people say "it was love at first sight", I was so annoyed by reading that segment in some article I read on Gaddafi about his wife. Jealousy at it's best, lol! But how can humans do that with other human beings ? What if he isn't into me in that kind of way. Or what if I'm not into him in that kind of way, what if we're into fucking each other, but not heavily affected by one another. That's the problem with most teen, and why most teenagers are getting pregnant across this country, and we have this ongoing social issue about birth control, and parent planning, and the chaos with the lefties and righties fighting over this phenomenon.

I can not stand the "boyfriend and girlfriend" phrase, like get married if y'all are serious!! And they through all of there shitty issues and get stressed over the dumbest things and sometimes end up having a child. Haha babies and babies making babies. It's absurd to me how some teenagers take their relationship status seriously. Do other thing's, young people!!! focus on having a better education and graduate high school, worry about global warming and climate changing; chemtrails and whatnot.

The bottom line:
From reading and writing all of the things that I have wrote above tells me that I don't have a clear understanding of simply what LOVE means, at least not what love is. But I do know this, instead of finding true love and believing in faith and patiences, and supporting one another based upon the laws of the Bible, Quran, Torah, fasting and the virtues of living right like what we Christians, Muslims, Jews should do, we tend to go against that and transgress as we prolong to live in our lives. We follow all of these prohibited acts against humanity and the means of these books, and we directly strive onto the devil's good side which is: drinking, oppressing others, slandering others, foolish partying, fornication, adultery, greed, envy, and gluttony, which all oppose to what LOVE means. I'm not trying to sound like some old religious head at all, because I am not!! I just want to make it clear to why there's not enough of LOVE, hope, and charity in this world, but HATE, fear and envy, and damn if there's a lot of that stuff.. no wonder I can't "find" the right definition of what LOVE means in my this world. But I sure as hell no what HATE means.