Save The Broken Girl

Chapter 4

i was on my way to the school walking and thinking of how this day again will be the same as everyday , but somehow i had a feeling it won't , something will be different , how ? i don't know . 

each day i will go to the school , have some shit talk thrown between me and Hannah , and people 'oohing' with every word we say , but non of them ever stood up for me or tried to stop Hannah from her harsh words , and yesterday it was the first time it ever happened.

i always looked at Chase and think ' damn ,he is cute ,hot , and nice guy , ' which is hard to find in our school, here in our school most guys are hot and jerks ,and i'm not joking ,but chase ,he is actually nice, never made fun of anyone ,always stood for others, and yesterday was the first time he stood up for me.

i always had a tiny crush on him , i am not saying i like him , or love him, it's just a high school crush .

i reached my school and went straight to my locker , took my books for the first class which was biology , yay,i don;t care what are you thinking, i LOVE biology , i actually find it cool and interesting to know the things inside our bodies, to know that miracle that god made, which is US , humans.

i took my book out and headed to my class when someone start walking beside me and said

"Good Morning " i recognized that voice 

"good morning Chase" i looked at him and gave him a smile .

"how are you today ?" he asked , i couldn't help but smile, he is trying to start a conversation with me 

"i'm great , what about you ?" 

"Amazing , what do you have now ?"

"biology ,what about you ?"

"math " he said with a huge smile on his face , i laughed 

"you are the only human that get excited for having math ,you are weird  "

"Hay!! don't be mean to me, just because i'm good at math and love it and actually understand it doesnt make me weird , it makes me smart"

i nodded at him and said " true,true, and i bet now you get 100s at it !" he mocked shocked at me and said 

"HOW DID YOU KNOW !!" which made me laugh out loud and get weird looks from people around me , eh i don't care they can stare.

"lucky guess" i winked at him and said " well, i reached my class, "

"okay, see you around " he said smiling 

" sure, see you later "

i said as i got inside and went to my seat .

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i was in the cafeteria eating my food peacefully and thinking of how the hell am i gonna mange to do all my home works today AND study for the exam that we have tomorrow . i sighed and put my sandwich down 

"hay ,you okay ?" i heard again for the second time today Chase's angelic voice 

"yeah, i'm fine " i put a smile on my face, i took my sandwich again and start eating .

"i don't think so ,,,what's wrong? tell me " he asked again, i could hear worry in his voice

"i'm okay, i promise , i'm just thinking of how to do my homework and study for the exam tomorrow,that's all " 

"you sure that's all ?" he asked again , as weird it is that i;m talking to him like he is an old friend of mine, it's nice to know that someone's care .

"i promise " i smiled at him and we both continued eating , well , i continued eating , he started eating his sandwich,

after the bell rang signaling the end of the school day i took my bag and went to my locker, took the books i need and put inside it the ones i don't need , after locking it i headed to my house.

so my plan is i will start doing my home works as fast as i can beside the hestory work cause that i will leave later after i study for it's exam so it will be a way of testing myself if i remember what i just study that way i will be finishing and studying .

"UGH WHO CARES ABOUT WHAT THEY DID AND WHY !! THEY ARE DEAD !!" i screamed in frustration , i was trying to remember the reason of some war that happened during world war II and it's not working very well .i sighed and continued studying when mum called for dinner .

i went to the diner and took my seat beside Rabia and of cours the usall happen , 

"So Selen , how is school ?" my dad asked , me and dad always had a great relationship ,yeah we had a couple of fights and arguments but he is a great dad, too bad he is hardly home .

"it's great dad " i replied and smiled back at him when he smiled at me 

"did you start your exams ?" my mother asked , me and my mother never had a good relationship, to be fair we had like once or twice a couple of nice convrsation but most of the times we end up in a huge fights , 

the things between me and mum she always compare me to others,in everything, looks,grads,style,how many friends they have and more , to her i can do better than what i'm doing now , i'm not perfect while the others are perfect .

"yeah i have one tomorrow " i replied to her 

"didd you study or where you as always on twitter and that shit that you are always on ?" she asked 

" i was studying and i don't even spend that much of a time on twitter mum ," i replied trying to not let my voice get loud o she wont comment about it .

"that's what you said last time ,remember ?,when you said that you studied but you faild that exam"

"FAILED!!for god's sake i got 95 in the last one how did i fail that !!"i was surprise

" Cameron , stop it now " my dad told my mother " can't we even have a dinner without you always fighting with Selen!!"

"George , all o did was -" my dad cut her off " i don't wanna hear it , i want to eat now and i won't hear anyone of you talk " 

i was glad that my dad stoped my mother , see my ibiling never did,why you might ask ?

well James is the oldest he was always a mama's boy because he was the first one who came out !!

Rabia ,is the first daughter , mum always said she wanted a daughter after James and Rabia was her first daughter 

and Jake ,he is the youngest of us so he take all of the attention and care from our mother and he is also a mama's boy .

so non of them will say anything cause me going means more attention to them , i'm the one who get compaired to them which makes them feel like they are better .

wonder about me ?, i've always been the one who get ignored by her mother ,and her dad always busy so she always was alone , 

i'm the girl who when she used to come back from school with a 'great' drowing her mum will laugh at it and ask why did you bring it home and that i should've thrown it in the trash as soon as i took it .

i was the girl who always fall asleep crying ,the girl who once her wish was to fall asleep one day without crying but with a smile on her face instead of a tear rolling down on her red cheeks.

i'm the type of girl who when she saw her others sibiling get in trouble will get the blame instead of them and she will do it happy cause she thought ' at least let our mother fully love them' and i will get punished for doing something 'wrong' .

i was the type of girl who will be happy to see others happy , i never wished something bad to happen to someone and i will never do.

silence, that's how and for the first time ever we ate dinner in the Jones house.