I can't help but shake the thought that Dipper and our parents are looking for me.. That when they find me, they will brutally rip me away from Pacifica. When she needs me most.. I can't handle that happening. I'm just glad it hasn't happened yet..
Pacifica and I are on her bed, just holding eachother. I'm stroking her hair as she stares up at me, a small smile on her lips.
We're interrupted by her door quickly opening, revealing her parents with anger in their eyes.
"Pacifica I told you you were cut off!" Her mom yells at her.
Pacifica quickly looks away from me, fear in her eyes but determination on her face. "You obviously didn't tell our butlers."
"Pacifica," her dad starts, "we're doing this because we want the best for you-"
"You don't know the best for me!" Pacifica yells back at him, closing her eyes tightly, clenching her fists, grabbing the bottom of my sweater.
"Yes we do." Her mother speaks up sternly. "This is just a phase-"
"Mabel and I are not a phase! I am in love with her and she's in love with me too! I'm gay and I'm gay for Mabel!" She yells, quickly turning to me, grabbing the collar of my sweater, smashing her lips against mine.
Moments later, I hear a bell being rang, causing Pacifica to pull away slightly, looking down before she presses her lips back onto mine.
"I can't believe we failed as parents.." Her mother speaks up quietly. This is when Pacifica pulls away, looking at her mom.
"We did everything right. How could this have happened?"
"S-stop!" Pacifica yells. "I get it. You're ashamed of me because I'm with a girl.. You should let me live my life. Let me do what makes me happy. All my life I've put on this- mask for you two. And around everyone! You told me not to socalize with those underclassmen. With those 'peasants'. Saying they're not good enough and they'll 'infect' us I'm so tired of you two! I've been hiding from everyone for my whole life! But then Mabel showed up.." She lets out a sigh, looking over at me, taking my hand gently in hers.
"And she changed that.. She showed me a love I'd never seen and an acceptance I didn't deserve.."
"Pacifica.." Her mom speaks up.
"Just-" Pacifica starts, interrupting again, "it doesn't matter.. My feelings don't matter, right? So do it. I know what you're going to do. So why don't you just get it over with. I understand you don't want to see my happiness. That's why you ripped it away from me such a long time ago.."
"Mabel.." Is all her mom says, looking me in the eye, moving aside slightly as to show for me to leave.
I look back at Pacifica, pulling her in for one last passionate kiss. "I'm sorry, Pacifica.. I love you. I love you so much. I promise I won't forget about you."
Tears form in her eyes as she wraps her arms tightly around me. "I love you too.." She says quietly. Her voice much softer than I'd ever heard it before.
With that, I get up, leaving the room, not looking back. If I do, I know I'd stay. I know I'd yell at her parents, going against them, making them hate me more than they already do. If I were to stay, it would just be worse later.
I know I'm hurting Pacifica. I know I'm leaving her. I can never forgive myself for that.
I don't know if she can either..
