Girl in the mask(A Daryl Dixon Love Story) (Under revision)

Chapter seven

Well this is a disaster I thought as I sat next to Carl as the group chit chatted. It was awkward especially when Carl or Rick would try to bring me into the conversation everyone would just go quiet or give me dirty looks.
Carol and Daryl weren't here they had gone off to look for food or something but we did have canned food so it wasn't really needed. Rick was holding little Judy but then he handed her off to me after she made a grabby hand to me. I gladly took her and started to gently rock her to sleep but she refused to sleep so she decided to play with my hair instead. She weaved her little hands through my dark brown locks of hair.
I felt eyes on me but I ignored them. I was enjoying the time I was spending with the little person in my arms.
As she played with my hair she giggled and smiled at me.
"You're really good at that" I heard Maggie say. "Good at what?" I said as I raised my eyebrow in her direction. "Your good at handling her" she clarified.
"Oh I would think so I use to be a teacher" I said bluntly " it would be sorta sad if I didn't know how to handle her."
"You were a teacher? What kind?" Glenn asked as it seemed to pick his interest. I chuckled "I was an art and music teacher mostly private lessons. Ages 4 and up most of them kids."
I could see that they felt bad about judging me up until now the guilt was on their faces.
"How does a art and music teacher know how to use all those weapons" Abraham asked and pointed at all my weapons on the floor.
"I use to hunt with my dad it was father daughter time. He also taught me how to throw knives and all that fun stuff said a girl should be able to defend herself it didn't really help in the long run" I said pointing to my mask as I went to place Judith in her home made bed.
"How'd that happen?" Terra asked. I sighed,"I was beat by my ex. Sometimes every night and then there was the incident that made me start to wear the mask." I continued as I sat down. "What was the incident?" Terra asked.
"I thought Rick would have told you by now" I said and looked at him. He shook his head "That's your business I'm not going to tell anybody it's up to you to do that." I nodded and my respect for this man grow. "Well it was that I dropped some food on the floor and he decided to beat me and pour semi-boiling water on my body. I was hospitalized and I sent him to prison." I said bluntly as I lifted my mask enough to show the part of my neck that was burned. "From then on I didn't really interact with others I kept to myself and went about my life then here we are" I said.
They stayed silent for a while the only noise coming from Judith that was now in Sasha's arms.
"We're sorry" Glenn finally said. "For what? Thinking I was a threat? That's fine I'm sorry I snapped at y'all I just have trust issues and have trouble around people. Other than that what you guys did was justifiable I'm pretty sure you have meet a lot of assholes and killers since the world went to hell. I would have done the same if I were any of you but I'd probably would a killed you instead of letting in the person who refused to tell others about themselves or even show them their face even if that person is as messed up as me" I said as I hugged my legs to my chest.
"You're not messed up." Tyrese said as he came and sat down next to me. "You've just been dealt a bad hand by life. A really bad hand. But other than that you're alright you haven't killed any of us so that's something" he continued. I chuckled "I would think Abraham would disagree I did kick his ass when he tried to take my mask off." "In my defense I was starving and weak" Abraham defended himself. Everyone laughed.
"And you're wrong I am screwed up I just think we all are that's why it's not a big deal. I mentally can't come to terms with how my face looks now I can't do anything to change it and honestly I don't think I'll ever be able to show my face to anyone ever again and I'm sorry but you have to live with that even if it's hard. I can't let anyone see that ever it's to horrible if I let anyone see I'd probably lose myself the me that is here now." I said as I tried my hardest to re-strain the tears and sobs that threatened to come out.
"That's fine. We understand but understand that you never know it could come off by accident or we could walk in on you when you have it off" Rick said in a reasonable voice. "I know but until then I would like to keep it to myself." I said and they all nodded.
The rest of the night went well up until we noticed bob was gone.

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Sorry if I haven't gotten to the romantic part of the story and if it's moving pretty slow I just want it to be as good as I can make it.