Girl in the mask(A Daryl Dixon Love Story) (Under revision)

Chapter eighteen

We stood there looking at each other for what felt like forever. I still was on high alert and waiting for him to reply. "How old was he?" He asked. "He would have been around Carl's age now had he not died." I said not really answering the question. It was silent but I could hear his breathing. I guess he didn't want to force me to talk so he kept quiet. "I honestly think I should just walk out of here without a weapon and see how far I'll get" I whispered as I removed my mask. "I hate how I look and how weak I really am..." I sighed "but I can't do that now can I.... I should have just kept walking when I was done helping Rick, Carl, and Michonie... maybe I would have died out there and you guys wouldn't have to deal with me..." before I could say anything else he spoke "We don't think you're a bother and we like having you around you're new and oddly comfortin' and you're family now.... we aren't going to just let you go out of the blue...." he stopped I guess not knowing what to say next. I looked at him then my mask. "You say that but you might be the only who feels that way" I muttered taking a seat in the corner. He sat by the door. "You might think that but the others like having you around. You know how to survive and you care about others even though most of the people out there now ain't shit. You get angry for the rest of us you deal with us..." He trailed off. "I think that's the most I have ever heard you say mr. Daryl Dixon. It's nice to just talk like this. It makes you realize how human we all still are instead of what those things are like out there, but it also makes you think we can turn into those things out there bitten or not." I smiled at him but I doubt he could see it with how dark it was. It became silent again. "Daryl can you promise me something?" I asked him and I saw him nod his head. "If I get bite or if someone kills me you have to be the one to put an bolt in my head. Not Rick, Carl, Carol, not anyone else but you." I said quietly I could tell what I said made him tense but he nodded his head in agreement. "Only if you do the same for me" he muttered making it hard to hear but I nodded. "It's a deal we can't go back on our word no matter what the others say we make sure it's us to put each other down" I said looking out the window once again. We stayed silent talking every so often throughout the night

In the morning we went to look in the second house. Carl, Carol and i were taking a look around. "Isn't it odd they just gave use two houses" I asked and Carol nodded and we went to have chat with Rick and Daryl. We all agreed to sleep in one house that night. Michon seemed to like this place but she understood why we were playin it safe. We stuck together the rest of the day. I was in charge of Carl and Juddy. We stayed in the house and kept to ourselves mostly most of us hadn't received 'jobs' yet so we had nothing to do. That night Diana came to check on us and said she had given almost everyone a 'job' aside from Michon, Rick, Sasha, Daryl and myself. She said she was still trying to figure out Daryl and I but that she would do it as she got to know us better. That night I didn't sleep at all but I did pretend I was asleep so no one would worry. Rick woke up and stood guard. I guess I wasn't the only one who was on edge. 

I do not want to get use to this place. From what I have seen the people here are weak they don't know anything about survival. I wanted no part of this. I stayed inside most of the time. Sad to say I missed Glen knocking a prick on his ass. I had decided to start hanging out on the roof of the house there was a sturdy tree that helped me get up there. It put me in a place where I could see everything that was going on around us. That and I could eavesdrop on conversations that I wasn't a part of like the late night chit chats Rick, Carol, and Daryl were having about this place. It wasn't my place to talk so I let them say and do what they wanted but i'm pretty sure they know i'm listening. They just know I won't say or do anything that would ruin their plans.

I hadn't gotten a job yet and it had been a couple of days and now Diana wanted to have a welcome party for us. Which I found to be a stupid idea but Rick insisted that I go to it. Carol had been charming the pants off everyone. I guess being a house wife before all this shit happened did come in handy for her. I know it was an act but god it was funny to watch how naive they were to her act. Carol was acting like she wanted to make food and plans for the party but I know she's just doing it to get the people here to like and trust her. Carol always did know how to be invisible with people. So now everyone had something but me I avoided everyone and just stuck to taking care of Juddy and Carl. Then the dreaded time came I had to go to the party. Everyone just kept lookin at me strangely. I get why but really none of them could hide that they were staring. Some even tried to give me food to see if I would remove my mask but I refuse to take it off until I completely trust them. However Rick asked me to mingle so I did and I did not like it so I decided to leave. I caught Daryl leavin before he even went in and then we ended up going to Aaron's house for spaghetti. Then I figured out that I needed to take off my mask to eat and asked if I can have mine to go but Aaron and his boyfriend both insisted on me eatin right then and there. "I don't want to ruin anyone's appetite" I said harshly. The room went silent. "You know what never mind thank you for the meal but I can't eat right now so I'll be leavin" I said as I made to get up but Daryl stopped me. "You know they meant nothin by it" He whispered to me. I nodded and sat back down. "What I am about to show you stays in this room 'lright?" I said. Aaron and Eric nodded and I removed my Mask. I saw the pity in their eyes but they did not question me but they let me eat in peace. 

After we finished eating I stayed with Eric and Daryl went into the garage with Aaron to talk. Eric and I chatted for a bit before he asked the question I could tell he was holding back all night. "so what happened to you did it happen before or after all this happened?" I looked at him trying to see if he was really trust worthy. I could tell he meant no harm by his question and was just curious about it. "You know curiosity killed the cat" I said and he froze scared. I chuckled, "It was a joke and as for your question it happened before shit hit the fan." He quickly got over my poorly placed joke and asked a follow up. "what happened?" I hesitated but sighed, "My ex happened He was an abusive mother fucker who only cared about being drunk and when was the next time he could use me as a punching bag. Eric went silent but I could tell he was trying to think of a way to keep the conversation goin. However Aaron and Daryl came back and Daryl and I had to go because it was getting really late. On the way back to the house Daryl mentioned that he would be working with Aaron now instead of Eric because of how Eric got hurt. So that left me. I was now the only one without a job but I guess I would have to just take care of Juddy and Carl as best I can.

I heard a lot about what happened at the party. Sasha yelled at someone and Abraham got drunk that was about it. Michon then decided to put up her sword in hopes she won't need it anymore. I also now knew that Rick carol and Daryl knew I was Listening because they started to have meetings outside the walls of this place. The only person i hadn't really seen was father Gabriel.

Daryl started heading out with Aaron as soon as the Bike was up and runnin. So now I was the only person everyone was avoiding and didn't want to get near well everyone but Eric and the group. 

The day was slow Carl was taken care of Juddy and I was having some alone time on the roof, but all good things should come to an end. I caught a kid around Carl's age going into the house next door and went to go see what they were doing turns out it was a girl said her name was Enid. "What are you doin'?" I said holding my crossbow up at her. "I just came to get some of my stuff." she said a little scared. I put down my weapon and looked her up and down she was harmless she wasn't capable of hurting me so I was going to leave her to do what she needed to do. "Hey wait" she called as i was leaving. "What?" I said as I turned to look at her. "What happened to you?" she asked I sighed and took my mask off I doubt she would go around telling everyone. "I trusted and fell in love with someone I shouldn't have and this happened.... careful who you trust not everyone is your friend. This does not leave this room 'lright" I said and she nodded. "How did you end up with the group?" she asked. I shock my head. "You ask a lot of questions you know that kid?" she frowned. "I meet them a while back" I said. "what about before them were you with other people?" I sighed again. "No I was alone until I Rick and the others." I said. "You were out there all by yourself since the beginning?" she continued. I nodded Taking a seat believing she was going to keep asking questions.  Then she just decided to be quiet. We stayed there silent for who knows how long.

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 I tried to make it as long as I could with how late I am working on this. Sorry for taking so long to update but my life has been pretty hectic lately and I have literally no time for anything but thank you if you are still reading this story. I will try to update more often and i may go back and edit most of the story because of grammar errors and just how short some of the story is. I want to make some parts better and add better detail. So I apologize in advance for any changes I make to the story.