Conflicting Love (Jori)

Chapter Four

Jades POV

" One time my brother bit my foot. " Cat says smiling with a soft giggle starting one of her odd stories about her freakish brother. I kick my boot against the side of the bed I'm sitting on as I cut up an old stuff animal I had found in the basement. Cat insisted that I come visit her today at her house, I didn't feel like it at all, but then I didn't want her to continue to cry either after I said no. 

" New topic please. " I say cutting off the ear of the teddy bear, I enjoy it when the stuffing pops out onto the top of Cat's bed. 

" Okay...Um. " Cat says before putting on her thinking face, she pets her giraffe while doing so adjusting her body in her bean bag to get in a more comfortable position. 

" That new girl Tori is great, don't you think? " She says looking as if she feels accomplished with coming up with a new topic. 

" Nope. " I say not liking this topic either. If it wern't for Cat's crying and whining, I would be off doing better things with my time. 

" Why do you say that? " Cat asks looking confused with my earlier statment, I sigh before talking hating how I have to explain myself.

" She's..." I begin trying to look for the right words to say. 

" She's what? " Cat asks still looking a little confused making me flustered with words. 

" She's...I don't know. I don't know how to describe it...I just don't like her. " I say angry that I can't come up with a reasonable answer. I cut the teddy bear faster making a huge mess.

" That's what you said about Beck when you met him. " Cat mentions making me angrier, she just had to bring that up. 

" That's different..." I say sighing wishing I could leave this conversation. 

" How so? " She asks looking curious, why so many questions?

" Because...it's a whole different story. He made me fall in love with him...That's not what it's going to be like with Tori. Okay? " I say getting hurt thinking of how I used to be so in love with Beck, I just don't know him anymore. 

" You never know what will happen. " Cat says making me look over at her quickly, she looks like her innocent self as usual. 

" What do you mean? You think I could fall in love with Tori? " I question roughly, does she think I'm bisexual? 

" Why not? " She asks confused once again making me angry that I have to answer that question. 

" First of all, I don't like her. Second of all, she's a girl..." I say feeling awkward telling her the second reason. 

" Well...I thought you liked girls too..." She says pondering something. 

" How did you kn-I mean why do you think that? " I ask catching myself cursing myself out for almost giving myself away. 

" Sorry..." She says appearing sad, she looks down at the ground avoiding eye contact with me. 

" No, tell me. Why do you think that I like girls too? " I ask wondering how she knows, I haven't told anyone ever since I realized it myself. 

" Because...i've seen you stare at some girls before...the same way you used to stare at Beck. " She says looking awkward with the topic.

" Well I don't. " I lie to her angrily hoping this conversation will come to an end soon. Cat doesn't reply back making me somewhat happy, I leave on an awkward note hoping she doesn't go blabbing to someone about our conversation. I sigh hoping nobody will find out about my secret.