Conflicting Love (Jori)

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

Tori's POV

Okay Tori, just breath. Everything is going to be alright. Everything is going to go just fine. You'll go out with Beck tonight, keep it on a level of friends and make it clear that's how is should be. Then you'll go home and forget all about it, just two friends hanging out, eating dinner together.

Oh god, i'm dead. I'm totally dead, i've ruined it all. I should just go find a hole and die in it. I can't call Beck and cancel, I would never want to hurt his feelings like that. I would never want that awkward feeling between the two of us, he's a good friend. Maybe if I just tell him that, he wouldn't take it to heart and everything will just be the way it was? 

What would Jade do if she found out about this? Would she seriously try to kill me and then never want to be friends again? The feeling of that being a possibility makes me feel uneasy, I can't ever let that happen. I really like her, I know I might not ever be able to have her as something more like I want, but having her as a close friend is the closest I can get to her. I need to be around her, I can't lose her. 

" You look like shit. " I hear in front of me making me jump, I turn around realizing i'm still in the kitchen pouring juice into a now overflowing glass. 

" What's wrong with you? " Trina asks now standing in front of me while putting on lip gloss. I sigh and grab a paper towel cleaning up the juice that's all over the counter. 

" Nothing. " I respond wishing I could be alone for the last few minutes before this date with Beck, he's gonna be here in about fifteen minutes. 

" Something is obviously up, you're acting weirder than usual. " Trina shrugs taking my glass after i've wiped it up. 

" Hey, that's my ju- you know what, I don't care. " I start to point out but shrug off, sitting down at the table. 

" Seriously, what's making you all tense? " Trina asks sitting down next to me with my glass of juice, taking a few sips. 

" It's nothing, you wouldn't care. " I sigh letting my fingers wrestle with each other, staring down at them. 

" I might not, but hit me with your best shot. " She replies setting the glass down on the table, actually acting as if she's giving me her full attention. I let out a long sigh before giving her my reply. 

" Okay, so I was asked out to go on a date tonight by one of my friends. I don't want to go out with him, but I couldn't say no. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. " I tell her not knowing if I should leave the Jade part out or not. 

" Is it Andre? " Trina asks with wide eyes making me groan. 

" No, it doesn't matter who it is. What should I do about it though? " I ask her hoping there is some good advice in her to share.

" It's the nerd with the puppet, huh? Just dump him. You don't need him as a friend anyway. " She replies looking proud of herself for figuring it all out. 

" Trina, it doesn't matter who it is. Stop guessing. Now what do I do? I don't want to lose him as a friend. " I plead for an answer, why do I keep thinking she'll have one to give? 

" Fine...Just act as if it were not a date. Be repulsive, dress in something gross...what you are already wearing should do fine. " She replies making me quickly look down to the outfit I had picked out, what's wrong with it? I then realize what else she had said.

" Wait Trina, that's brilliant! I'm going to go change. " I grin before getting up and kissing her on the cheek which she quickly rubs off, I run up the stairs to my bedroom. I go straight to my closet and try to find something that I would never wear on a date or in public. Oh Trina, thank you for being somewhat smart tonight.