Royals

Thinking out Loud

         Last night I had the weirdest dream. It was dark, cold, and I was all alone. I called out for my family and friends but no one was there. There I stood just myself and the darkness. I heard creepy voices calling out to me. Repeating my name over and over and telling me that they will meet me soon. I did not know what this dream was all about. However, I hope that it is only that — a dream. When I woke up I still had chills running down my spine. The feeling is hard to shake. I relieved myself with a warm shower which calmed my body but not my thoughts. I tried not to think too hard about it, however; nowadays that's all I do. But ever since my self-thoughts became shared ones I've been afraid to truly think. I know who could hear them. Learning how to control this power has to happen soon, if not I will go mad.

      After the shower, I headed to my closet trying to figure out what should I wear today. Things would be much easier in the mornings if I picked out my clothes the night before but I'm never that organized. I grab my thigh-high black boots. They have a thick heel that was about 2 inches. Which is perfect for me. I then pick out a little black sundress with sunflowers patterns all over and to add the finishing touch, my black leather. I quickly put my clothes on, trying not to be late. I parted my straight hair to one side preferably the more on the left. Combed it out and added some mascara and a nice brown lipstick for the finishing touch.

"Ava!"

"What! What the hell!" I held and jumped back as I was frightened by the voice of my cousin yelling in my head.

"What the hell Tatum you almost gave me a heart attack!"

"Sorry... I was calling your name, out loud that is and you weren't responding. Then I yelled it in my thoughts."

"Okay- now that we are mind cheating. What do you want?"

"Just letting you know I am downstairs ready to leave. Please hurry up." She giggles.

For a moment there I think Tatum is enjoying this mind-stuff.

"I'm on my way down now."

"Roger that!"

"Tatum."

"Yeah?"

"Please stop."

"Oh okay, sorry."

I didn't think anything back because she would mostly keep on. I just headed downstairs trying not to think. We really need to nip this in the bud and figure out how to control this ability. I can't imagine how I am going to get through school today...

"Oh my God! I hope Hunter doesn't hear how I feel about him."

"Oh my God! You have a crush on Hunter!"

Tatum laughs.

And I just noticed I thought that standing right next to her.

"No— I mean, maybe. It's uh— complicated," I say embarrassed.

"Yeah, I bet" she responds with curiosity.

I decided to drive this time hoping it will help me focus and maybe the distraction on not hitting anyone would help me not think about anything else. I even blasted the radio just in case I do think of something hopefully the sound would blank it out. And I was feeling confident with all of my methods. Until Tatum turns off the radio and out the window flew my confidence. I knew she was going to start questioning me any minute and to be honest I was annoyed. Can't I just have my thoughts to myself?