You're different.

Goodnight kisses.

Later that day when it got dark, josh and Tyler had to leave with Jenna and go to their bus because Jenna was getting tired.
We all exchanged our goodbyes.
"I'm going to see Diplo with Zack! You wanna come?" Sophie asked
"Umm...I'll just go back to the tent, I'm getting tired." I yawned.
"Awww, okay, don't moan if I come in late and I'm really loud though."
"Aha, I'll try not to soph."
We both parted and I went to the tent that Sophie set up earlier in the day, she doesn't go small. The last tent we stayed in was huge and ugh...I'm not sure if I like such big things.
I walked over where I thought it was and I saw a massive tent with lights on the front of it.
My face hit my palm so hard I think I have myself concussion.
I opened the tent door and it was all fancy inside...I hate Sophie sometimes, I had my own separate room, I mean come onnnn.
I opened my bag that was on my sleeping bag and got my pyjamas on. (A big T-shirt and some shorts) it was such a hot night...I nearly bought my onesie which would have been a bad decision.
My phone buzzed.
Twitter: 1 person followed you. (9 minutes ago)
I checked to see who it was...it was Josh
I was so happy, then I got another buzz and I saw at the top of my screen it was from "jishwa"
Jishwa: hey looser, you up?
Me: uh...duh, I'm sitting in a massive tent technically in the middle of a concert.
Jishwa: ahh, that must suck...we don't have that problem in a bus.
Me: ...I hate you.
Jishwa: love you more.
Wait what...must just be a friend thing...i don't know why I'm shocked at that, I say that to my friends when they say I hate you.
Me: bet it's nice and cool in your bus, huh?
Jishwa: oh sorry I took so long to reply...I was just making out with my AC.
Me: wow...so funny Josh.
Jishwa: it was wasn't it, I'm proud of that.
Me: don't even.
Jishwa: ah I need to go, I'll be a couple of minutes, I won't be long.
Me: lmao, okay, baiii.
Jishwa: baiii
Damn...I love this boy
It will cause so much trouble...it will hurt like a bitch...it.
Before I could finish over thinking I heard something outside.
I was really anxious and didn't know what to expect so I got my flashlight which weighed a ton...and opened my part of the tent into the main middle part.
"H-hello?" I stuttered, I couldn't really hear a lot over the music in the background.
I began to open the front of the tent when I saw a red haired face pop through the hole.
"AH SHIT!"
It was Josh.
"Oh my gosh, josh you scared me, how did you even find my tent, you're so far away from your bus, how did you get here so fast, did you run? Damn your stealth is great." I asked too many questions...I was nervous, anxious, scared and blushing all at the same time.
"You ask so many questions aha, can I uh, come in?" Josh asked me in his low voice.
"Oh, yeah of course."
Joshua clambered in and looked around.
"This. Tent. Is. huge."
"I know, I know, blame Sophie, she doesn't like going small." I roll my eyes.
"Wait, why are you here?" I asked josh.
He looked at me as if he didn't expect me to ask that question.
"Just wanted to see how you were doing, it's late and I wanted to talk to you about the show that's- (josh cuts himself off my quickly looking at the time on his phone, it read 3:20am) well...in a couple of hours aha."
"Ah, okay, that's sweet of you." I smiled looking down at my feet.
"It's nothing, I feel like I've known you forever and I guess the instinct just kinda kicked in." Josh murmurs under his breath.
"Thank you josh, it means a lot." I stare deep into his eyes unintentionally.
"Uh...so where do you sleep?" He breaks my awkward stare.
This makes me feel stupid.
"Oh...it's in there." I point to the left of the massive tent we were in.
Josh walks and ducks his head under the open part to get into the section.
"Awe, it looks so cozy." Josh notices.
"I was just about to watch a movie on my laptop before you creeped me out, you got here so fast man." I shake my head
"I probably should have told you that I was coming." He scratches the back of his head and smiles.
The way he looks down and the crinkles in his cheeks absorb my attention and make me smile just as hard as he is continued to baffle me to this day, everything about this boy is amazing, his personality, himself, his smile, his voice, his everything.
"Abbie???? You there?" Josh waves his hand in front of my face trying to get my attention.
"Oh, uh, sorry I was distracted what did you say?"
"Haha, nothing, are you tired?" He asked.
"Ha, how did you know?"
"You tweeted, 'I zone out a lot when I'm tired, weird huh?' A while ago and I guess I just remembered it aha." He bites his lip without realising.
I hate when he does that omgggg, is he trying to kill me?
"Ha, wow, well yes I am tired."
"U wanna get into bed?"
I paused for a while trying to wonder what he was implying but then I realised that he was just wondering if I wanted to go to bed.
"Oh uh yeah...but I don't want you to go." I admitted.
"I can still stay with you if you want."
"I'd like that thank youuu." I grinned closing my eyes at him.
I got into my bed and josh followed. He awkwardly sat at first but then he soon later down slowly as we kept talking, in the end he ended up being in the entire bed, we were both sort of cuddled up, well my head was against his chest and he was leaning his head against my head.
"This is nice" I didn't mean to say.
"It is, I'm very comfy, your hair smells nice." Josh laughs blowing my hair out of his face.
"Ahhh, sorry aha, my hair gets everywhere."
I slightly sat up and tried to move my hair out of his personal space bubble and I could feel him looking at me. This was very daunting.
"You good?" Josh asks as my hair was everywhere.
I stared at him and pouted with half of my hair over my face.
"You look so stupid haha, let me help."
He leans over and brushes my hair back behind my ear and back where it all belonged.
I stared at him the entire time as he was concentrating on my hair, he stuck his tongue out a couple of times whilst trying to tame the jungle that is the hair on top of my head.
"Done?" I look up
He looks my head all over.
"Yes, perfect." He smiles.
He leans and kisses my cheek suddenly.
"Oh...crap sorry, I didn't mean to-"
"It's fine josh." I cut him off.
"I'm just used to doing this stuff with...I'm sorry." He goes silent and bites his lip.
"Hey? It's ok, I-I liked it, you don't have to feel embarrassed around me at all, you could fully make out with me by accident and I wouldn't mind." I laugh.
"I know you wouldn't Abbie, but I do, I shouldn't have done that, I don't want to ruin what we have now because of some stupid feelings I have!" The end of the sentence was slightly louder that the start which shook me a bit.
Josh realised what he had just said about his feelings and goes bright red.
"Look I'll just go." Josh looks down as if he was going to cry.
"No."
We were both standing up now.
"Josh don't push me away please, I know you've had issues with getting close to other girls and admitting feelings...(josh started walking away.) if it makes you feel better...I feel the same."
Josh stops and looks back slightly, a couple of seconds later he turns around fully, in nearly crying my eyes out but I need to hold the tears back.
"Look, I said it, I'm sorry but I can't contain my feelings anymore, I know I'm moving very fast but you need to know, we have known each other for 6 months and I have enjoyed meeting up with you so much over the past months and i have developed feelings for you, you're amazing and I don't know how I'd live without you." I stutter here and there
Josh walks up to me with tears in his eyes and leans in very close to me.
"Thank you." A tear rolls down his face.
I could tell that he was in a lot of pain.
He leans slightly closer and he pecks me on the lips slowly.
"I'm going to go back to the bus, I'll text you when I get back, I've enjoyed talking to you and spending this time with you, we need to talk in the morning in person." Josh's words flowed perfectly.
"Okay" I smile deeply as he strokes my face.
Josh left.

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OH
MY
GOD
That was so long but so good, I feel like I could have done a bit better towards the end but oh welllll, (sorry for any spelling mistakes)
I hope this was up to y'all's standards because idekkkkk

I hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing it🤘🏻

Stay alive frens -Abbie❤️ |-/