Beating Hearts

"The Universe And Time"

    Just for a moment, take a deep breathe and close your eyes. where would you rather be?

  I saw a world of black and white, that consisted of souls full of color; with every touch, they seemed to bloom.

I closed my eyes during that car ride, trying to avoid the thoughts of my past, of making the same mistakes I did back then.

What if I don't know what love truly is? What if I crave the love I always gave yet never received?
What if Chad, is my next mistake?

I never thought that loving someone could lead to so many beautiful thoughts and so many horrible ones.
The way I saw Chad wasn't the way people saw him, I knew what they saw, and why they judged him.
But that's okay, because I knew him for who he was better than anyone else, I saw through his beautiful brown eyes.

  This world was different from my perspective, all I ever wanted was to live freely, but after bringing a soul into this world, my biggest secret was that all I ever wanted was to feel touched by it again, to feel the colors or velvet and white and everything extremely bright into my world of no color at all.

  Chad was more of the color green, for he made me feel loved, made me feel beautiful, but most importantly safe. I opened my eyes and turned the volume louder as I raised my hands to the sky, and looked to my right as I saw the man that made me feel free, or at least gave me hope for having my so called freedom someday.

Within three days Chad had become my closest friend, Ironic isn't it? how someone within a matter of seconds can know you better than someone who judged you whilst knowing you their entire lives.

"You think way too much for a twenty-six year old, don't you?" I heard his voice say in a sarcastic tone.

I couldn't help but laugh, even when he was making fun of my thoughts that we're all about him and those brown eyes of his, he'd still have the urge to say anything, anything at all.

"Yeah, I wonder how you'd be able to handle me, honestly"

"Who said I'll keep that mind of yours doubtful, pretty face?" as he turned to wink at me.

Oh God, he's so cute how am I supposed to answer him without making a complete fool out of myself.

"We'll see" I said as I started to sing the next track.

He was driving recklessly within a matter of seconds and I couldn't help but scream, I was so afraid and I couldn't do a thing about it so I closed my eyes, hoping he'd slow down. 

He stopped the engine back at his apartment's parking lot and left the car. I took my hands off my face and looked around me, only to find him opening the door for me and taking my seatbelt off.

"Come down we're here love."

"Never, you scared me I'm staying here I don't trust you anymore"

he started laughing so hard, yes I was being childish and pathetic but he really did scare me.

"Fine then, you asked for this."

He placed one arm below my thighs and the other behind my back, and with one pull, he managed to get me out of the car. Moving my legs from side to side while hitting his chest with one hand and having the other behind his neck to support my entire body.

he was laughing and I felt his stomach tighten, his laugh was contagious, I couldn't help but laugh with him.

We got into his place as he placed me on the couch, I took his glasses off to look at the eyes that made me feel home between two arms and not four walls.

He gave me a kiss on the forehead trying not to rush things and went up to his room. I took the time to look around and make some coffee for us, it was around 4:00 p.m. and I needed something in my system.

He came back with grey sweatpants on and a black V neck shirt, his hair was a mess as he obviously ran his hand through it while washing his face.

"hungry love?"

"starving, brown eyes"

he chuckled and opened one of the wooden cabinets he had in his kitchen and took out a pan.

"You cook?" I said as my eyes filled with surprise.