Beating Hearts

"Away"

We entered a wonderful scenery that looked like heaven, pink roses and white flowers surrounding us, with beautiful gold fabric spread everywhere.

His hand holding mine like an unbreakable bond that is far more superior than any other. The girl in the red dress and the guy in the tux stole everyone's eyes, and I could've never been happier with any other companion, for tonight, and for the rest of my life.

Chad sat down on a table with his friends that looked like a crew who just robbed a bank, a very hot one but I only had eyes out for him. After having the chance to meet each one of them and chat for a while, I headed straight to the bar.

"Hey, you're gorgeous" a girl in a purple short dress came close and poked me as I turned around.

"Thank you, so are you!" I said with a smile plastered all over my face because her compliment made me feel better.

  Walking back, I felt the atmosphere get darker and suddenly felt uncomfortable, I didn't want to ruin the night for Chad so I remained silent until that very moment everything fell apart.

It was him, he found me, and now I'm running once again.

I grabbed my purse and held it as close as I could to my chest and pulled my dress with the other hand at the level of my knee and stormed through the doors escaping the crowd who's eyes grew wider and jaws dropped with their faces turning pale one after the other.

"Sarah? Baby what's going on?" were the last words I heard from his beautiful voice that was rather the only thing helping me maintain some sort of sanity.

  I found the closest tree and hid behind it to cry and pour out everything that haunted me, everything that hasn't left my mind since.

It wasn't my father, at least I wish it was this time.

It was my ex-husband that I was forced to marry because he raped me I got pregnant after that incident that never leaves me without feeling a sense of pity and sadness for myself and my Baby girl who I no longer know nothing about, my baby Reina that I was forced to leave at the age of just nineteen to be able to have the chance to start a new life that had nothing to do with my past.

My family forced me to marry a guy I don't love, and I don't know on the inside because it was the only way the family's name would be protected, they were so afraid of what other people will say so that's what ruined their life, and mine.

not being able to accept the fact that I  gave birth to a baby girl after nine months of suffering from being beaten up and not being given enough food or being treated like a human being, he left me miserable and made me lose everything I ever had.

He murdered my little brother, my only brother from my own mother and father.

He was truly my worst fear, that now scared me more than ever.

As I  try constantly to pick the flowers that grow from the midst of hell, I'm ruining and shattering myself into a million pieces of solid rock that are no longer found within me, rather within everyone I've ever truly loved, framed in ash.

leaning my entire shaking body with a soul full of heartache and misery yet again after being the happiest I've ever been in all of eternity, I was let down.

Sobbing and questioning every reason possible for this to happen to me, I raise my head to the sky and yell out as loudly as I possibly can "Why me? Oh god? Tell me what wrong I've done. Just tell me, explain to me, please."

I hear the grass crunch beneath the feet of a person with a shadow rather terrifying, and that's where my savior comes in, that's where I tell him the whole entire truth and he puts his hands in mine, or at least I hoped so.

He came closer and I sniffed before the last tear landed on my puffed red swollen lips and shut my eyes closed as I raised my head to the skies above yet again.

He bent down and held all his body weight on one knee and kept his hand on his other thigh that was upright, without questioning, he knew I needed him, so he kissed me with love and affection and as I let out a small breathe in between his warm chest and landed my head on him.

That was the moment I truly found out, home is where the heart is.

"Tell me everything baby, tell me how much you need me and I promise to never leave you behind, I promise to help you through it all my love, just put your trust in us"

I kissed him gently and without hesitation told him everything about myself, my past, present, and plans for the future.

He didn't judge me or the mistakes i've made, Instead he held my hand and comforted me, he told me it'll be okay, and that was why i fell in love with him. because he loved me when i couldn't even love myself.

Chad was my savior, and my endless blessing.