Rants and Biscuits

Fake Friends #1

Something I have pondered for awhile. Are my friends all pretending to like me?

Sometimes I'll be like "Oh Peyton you silly butternut squash! They're your friends!"

This will usually be when they laugh at my horrible puns, want to go out with me and basically tell me I'm a good friend.

Other times I'm like "Welp, that's it! I'm gonna die alone and no one will come to my funeral!"

This is usually when they don't wait for me at my locker, ignore me when I'm talking or don't laugh when I tell a story.

It sometimes hurts and I question it a lot. I mean I don't have a best friend. I have close friends, but sometimes wonder if they really want to be friends with me. Are they just doing it to be nice?

I mean I know I've done that a few times and it's not fun. I feel guilty and annoyed.

Sometimes I just wish there was a whole book that told me everyone's opinion about me. Then I could at least see who I can trust.

There's been a few times where I legit think I have no friends. A girl at my lunch table once brought cookies for everyone we sat with, except for me. She literally had one extra cookie after she had eaten hers and ate it in front of me and said she didn't make enough. I know being upset about that is really petty, but it hurts a lot.

So I just have a word of advice for you all. Don't be a fake friend. Be nice to the person, but don't be that friend that is fake and doesn't really like them. Because it hurts to think someone could possibly not be your friend and is just faking it.

Wow, this was a really emotional first rant.

*holds back tears*

But I guess that's what this book is for. I swear the next one will be more light hearted.

Maybe.

Possibly.

Can't make any promises though.

-Peyton