Rants and Biscuits

Writing #4

This has been sitting on the back of my mind for awhile. I think I'm a decent writer. I'm not saying I'm amazing or horrible, but decent.

There are times when I feel amazing about my writing. I'll publish a new chapter and be very satisfied. Then I see all the high ranking stories. The ones with over 100k reads and with Watty award stickers and that little orange check mark next to their username. And when I see those people, I get so discouraged and unmotivated. I think I suck compared to them.

I know that's dramatic, but all those thoughts constantly fill my brain. I'm always asking myself if I'm good enough. When I try to write a new chapter, all I can do is think about all the popular stories and how my writing could never compare to theirs. I get unmotivated to write and let down the few people who actually enjoy my stories.

I wish I could be confident with what I do, but I can't help but compare myself to everyone better then me. And I know there will always be people better then me, but it doesn't help to think that I may be better then others.

There will be times when I get super sweet comments on my stories and be overwhelmed by joy. I try to think about that while planning and preparing to write, but those popular and high ranking stories always seem to battle their way through my confidence shield.

I'm not writing this to get attention or pity comment or follows or votes. It's just a simple thought that has bothered me for quite some time. I know I should be more confident, but it's hard to with all the great stories out there.

So if you're in the same situation I'm in, always remember: You are capable of any you set your mind to.

-Peyton