My Baby Girl

Chapter 10.

Lately, things have calmed down a bit with myself. I still think about Hayden everyday, and it drives me crazy knowing he isn't here with me. I've been trying my best to stay calm about everything. Grace is almost here, and I have to be ready to greet her as well. I always tell myself, Hayden is fine. No matter where he is, I know he's fine.

Eric and I have been doing better in our relationship as well. It seems like after our talk in the car, we've been more open with one another. I've been more open with him. He is a really good listener, and he tries his best to understand everything I say. I love him. I truly love that man, and I know he loves me just as much as well. I love our small family, but it won't be complete until we have Hayden back in it.

Today, Charlotte and I were the ones closing the coffee house. In the evenings, not much people come in so it's usually fairly slow.

"How's it been going at home with Eric?" Charlotte asked.

While she was cleaning the coffee pots, I was cleaning the pastries display. We had already sweept the front, and mopped as well. Once we're done cleaning behind the counter, Charlotte will be able to go home. I decided I would have to stay after hours, we need to do inventory. Well, I have to do stocking. I kind of left it until last minute. I guess when pregnant you don't have the best memory.

"It's been good, how's it been with Isiah?" I asked her.

"Good, can I tell you something? Don't tell Isiah I'm telling you this. We decided not to tell anyone, but I feel like I need to talk about it with someone."

I stopped cleaning out the crumbs from the case. I turned to look at her, and I couldn't help but notice the smile she wore. She seemed nervous, but at the same time she looked excited.

"I won't tell him anything," I said to her.

By now, Charlotte had also stopped cleaning. She was looking at me, probably still debating whether she should tell me or not.

"Well, we were talking and we decided that we might try for a baby," Charlotte said.

I was going to chime in, but before I could speak she continued. "I know what you're probably thinking. We're young, and just because you and Eric are pregnant, doesn't mean we should be too. I know you love your children, but I also know you're going to tell me I should wait until we're older. I mean after all, we did just move in together. It's just lonely having that empty room in the apartment, I feel like it should have a baby in it."

Charlotte continued to ramble on for a bit, and I slowly started to try to cut her off. She was nervous about telling me this, but I couldn't help but find it funny.

"Charlotte, I'm happy for you. You don't need to explain to me why you want a baby. I'm happy for you, for the both of you. Did you tell Isiah first you wanted to try for a baby, or was it Isiah?" I questioned her with a smile.

I couldn't imagine this being Isiah's idea. Not that he doesn't love Charlotte, or that he doesn't like kids. Growing up, Isiah wanted to be a Dad with the right girl. Charlotte is the right girl for him.

"I brought the subject up, but this is why I wanted to talk to you. Just that when I told him about this, he didn't seem as happy as his words were. It's like he was telling me yes, he was telling me he also wanted this, but I could tell he didn't. I mean, I know he wants kids but probably not at this exact moment. I just don't know what to do. I want him to be honest with me about this. Imagine, if we have a baby and he doesn't love it at the end. I don't know, I'm just lost I guess." Charlotte finally stopped talking.

Charlotte did seem torn about her feelings about this, and I know Isiah's feelings also confuse her. Knowing Isiah he wants to have a baby, but he's just scared. I would be scared too. Especially after being a front row witness to mine and Eric's story, it can scare some future parents.