Kassidy POV
Ever since that night, I was never able to sleep properly. My thoughts were all scattered. Why couldn't you just talk to him Kassidy? Why are you so goddamn stubborn Kassidy?Tears fall from my eyes every night when I think of him. I miss him, I miss his smile, his eyes, his hair, his heart. I never see him anymore. Who knew this love story ended with a horrible ending. Who knew that all can't end in a happy one? My heart aches. It hasn't ever ached this badly before. At that night of the whole chaos, I spoke to Zayn. He never had a clue about Marcel and I. He was full of guilt, even til today. But I guess I gained one friend. He has been there for me on the days I am upset. It was all my fault, all of this. I am a stupid idiot who never gets content. I get so angry at myself when I stare into the reflection. All i see is traitor. Marcel must hate me, he probably wishes to never see me again. It's okay, I don't even want to see myself either.
Marcel POV
It has been two weeks since I last spoke to Kassidy. I was so frustrated in what had happened. I didn't bother to talk to anyone here in Oxford after that. I barely even spoke to Niall, my own roomate. Zayn, well he tried talking to me, but i strongly declined his greeting and never wished to speak to him again. I thought he'd know that I may have had interest in her, the boys should have told him. God, I am an idiot. Why is it when i try my best to be careful, I hurt the one's I love the most? She changed me, she changed who I am and who Marcel was. Highschool Marcel was long gone, he was basically dead. Kassidy was the only thing that made the old Marcel hang on. And I just gave up on her like that. It is so fucking annoying now, seeing her and Zayn walk around the campus together. It always made my jaw clench and my fists turn into balls. I was not happy at all. My schedule everyday is go to my classes and go back to my dorm.
I never chased after Kassidy after that night. Why? I knew she deserved better. She deserved so much more. I didn't mean to give up on her just like that. But i was tired, there was a bomb in my head ticking. My insecurities got the best of me and I exploded. You aren't good enough for her. You aren't good enough for her. My thoughts were like a ticking bomb. Tick, tick, tick. boom. Whenever I think of her, I always imagined her in the dress she wore to see Zayn. I saw her beautiful eyes and hair, all done but not for me. For someone else. I let go of her. I let go of someone who knew who I actually was. No one knew me better than her, and there I did the most stupidest move and let go of her.
I have been talking to Harry alot lately. He is still happy with his girlfriend, which I am happy for him. He deserves all the best. Him and I have avoided the topic "Kassidy" everytime we spoke because we both knew it would just end up in anger or tears. My melancholy heart was profound in the death of the old Marcel. This isn't me anymore.
*6 Months Later*
Kassidy POV
So alot has happened these past few months. I finally accepted myself again. I accepted the fact that Marcel won't ever be mine anymore. So I moved on. I knew that I needed to make myself happy before I could love someone else. I finally see Marcel out of the building, he always with Niall and this girl Naomi. I was happy for him. I was happy to see his smile though from afar. I hope he's happy for me too, now that I have Zayn in my life. After we became close, we both developed feelings for one another and I guess we started dating. I hold Zayn's hand and we head over to Niall. I take a few deep breaths and look at Marcel in the eye. He changed alot, he had a few tattoos on his arm. He was more built and did his hair much differently.
"Hey guys", Zayn smiled at them and I looked at them and smiled.
"Hey Kass! Long time no see", Niall said and gave me a tight hug.
"Haha, yeah",
"Hey Kassidy", Marcel said.
"Hi Marcel", I gave him a small smile.
"Hi, I'm Naomi", she seemed sweet.
"Hi, I'm Kassidy",
"So mate, I was thinking maybe we should go out to the pub and get a couple of drinks tonight. Are you in?", Zayn said to Niall.
"Yeah man, I'd love to. Marcel you wanna go?",
"Nah, it's okay."
"No, you are going out. You haven't in a while"
"Okay", he sighed in defeat.
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So, I haven't been on here for forever.... But I decided to complete the book. It's at its end. Only two more chapters after this one. I will be posting the next one pretty soon, just because I owe it to you all. I am currently writing another book. Hopefully you guys are willing to read that one because I am super excited about releasing it! Xx
