because of you i'm filled with holes
it doesn't matter that you apologized or smiled
you've damaged me and you were the only one who could fix me
and now
now i'm all fixed up and put back together and there aren't any shattered pieces in my window-pane heart and now is when you think it's okay to apologize and start again but you don't know me and i don't think you ever did and i wish, god, i wish you had known me because maybe then you would've thought twice
because you were made of red flags and i tried to warn you that you had the power to drown me, throw me into a wine-dark ocean while you stand with someone else and watch sad bubbles escape from my nose
i can swim now and i feel awful for you because you need people to keep you afloat
you need people to support you and keep you from drowning because you can't swim on your own
maybe you're afraid of rushing bubbles and seaweed like knives and maybe you're afraid that people will leave you and goddamnit i am too
everyone's afraid of sharks in the deep and the absence of someone else's heart aching next to yours under luminous skies and everyone's afraid of drowning
except me
because of you i've learned to swim on my own and sure, at first i was sore and sure it hurt but i'm okay now
sometimes i hope that you are pulled down into the depths and drown on your own
sometimes i wish that we were in different oceans
YOU ARE READING
words for when the sky is blue
Poetrywelcome to the inside of my brain welcome to my ramblings and emotions and the stars and blue galaxy hands and open hearts beating on tables and the scent of rain my brain [featured by @hepburnettes]
