Trying To Love A Thug..

Part 12

2 months had passed. Dee had convinced me to move in with him, life was going great although I hadn't talked to my bestfriend Rere since I met her at the mall that day and to my knowledge Mario was still in jail. Every since Mario had been in jail Dee hadn't been in the streets as much and we were spending so much time together. Things were going so good between us but I still felt like I needed to tell him about the abortion I had almost a month ago. It killed me inside to hide stuff from him and my mother always told me, what's done in the dark soon has to come to the light. So I needed to man up and do whatever needed to be done. That night, I had gone to bed before Dee had even gotten home, soon as he did get there and got ready for bed, I just laid there and pretended to be sleep. It took me a minute but soon as I did build up the nerves to tell him, he was already snoring in my ear so I just let it be until the morning and soon fell asleep too. The next morning I had waken up before Dee, so I got up, did my regular morning routine, and went and cooked breakfast for him, hoping that would get me on his good side. Soon as I was flipping the last pancake I heard him coming down the stairs so i fixed his plate and placed it on the table. "Smells good big baby" he said as he grabbed my waste. I just smiled and fixed my plate and sat in front of him. It was an awkward silence for a long time. Picking up my glass of orange juice and slowing placing it back down. "Dee... Baby I have something to tell you..." I felt him staring at me so I stopped talking. "Ight ?? what is it" he asked. "Please don't be mad" I said and he raised his eyebrows "ok I'll try not to be, mmm stop beating round the bush and just tell me" I took a deep breath and continued to tell him, I could feel my eyes watering. "Right before I moved in with you, I had an abortion--" "You what.. Man what The fuck? and you didn't tell me shit until now, it must wasn't mine? huh?" he said as he stood up from the table I could hear the anger in his voice. My whole mood changed when he said that "the fuck you mean.. of course it was yours, I just felt I wasn't ready, and neither were you, Dee im young and--" he just waved me off and walked out of the kitchen "Man save that bullshit." I just shook my head, and watched him walk up the stairs I didn't even bother going after him. I just got up from the table and threw the half eaten food away. As I was cleaning the kitchen Dee came back down stairs fully dressed and came in the kitchen and grabbed his keys and was headed for the door "Dee where you going" he looked at me like I was shit on a log "really? Remember we don't tell each stuff now?" And slammed the front door. After I got finished cleaning up the kitchen I headed upstairs. I blasted some Bandit Gang Marco, i usually find myself cleaning when im in my feelings but this time I found myself In tears, yes shedding a shit load of tears. I finally got myself together and decided to call and check on Rere. She didn't answer the first time I was like well damn, but as I was plugging my charger in she called back

Phone convo-

Rere- hellooo

Me- hey stranger

Rere- that's you, I been meaning to call you tho.

Me- yeah yeah that's what they all say

Rere- I'm serious but where dee?

Me- girl he threw a lil bitchfit and left earlier.

Rere- childddd your crazy self ain't no telling what you did

Me- I don't do nothing to that boy, but you talked to Jana?

Rere- hell naw, bihhh you know better

(We stayed on the phone for about 2 hours and talked about a whole lot of nothing)

Phone convo resumed-

Me- yeah girl.

Rere- girl guess what happened?

Me-what fool?

Rere- the FBI called and asked would I come answer a few questions I agreed to go---

Me- okay what happened? Don't tell you ratted on Chris?

Rere- I had too, I did everything a TRUE rider would've done for their man, man they were trying to give Mario life for something he knew nothing about--

Me- are you FUCKN serious? You doing it like that ni? Chris is your stepbrother and on top of that he shot HAWK for your ass! And now he finna go do up to life cause of you, why you just didn't stay out of that?

Rere- you just don't un--

I just hung up I didn't even wanna hear what else she had to say, it made absolutely no sense. It would've been better off if she would've stayed out the bs and let them crackers figure it out on their own you can't keep an innocence person. I wanted to call Dee soo bad, cause he had a solution to every one of my problems, well any problem period. But I knew he was still mad about earlier. I finally decided to just put those feelings to the side and call Dee. It took him forever to pick up and when he did an unknown but familiar voice answered "Hello..helloooo? Who tf is this?" They kept screaming. I just know this nigga ain't let one of his bitches answer his phone. Man this was the last thing I needed right now.