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I watched as her wrinkled,
calloused hands
faced the daily spite
of ungrateful words,
uttered from the mouth
of the very person
she painstakingly labored for.
I watched as his words
did their damage,
uncaring about the smile
that no longer resided on
her face and the poisonous
words that filled her head
"It was all my fault".
But she held her tongue
and said nothing,
holding that everlasting
hope that he hadn't
completely lost himself.
Hope that would be never
be enough to cure him for,
I could see that he was gone.
I watched the guilt take over
his mind as those vicious
words took over his heart.
They made him forget
all that she'd done and that
that this was the one person
who'd never managed to lose hope.
One moment he'd be warm.
The next, she wouldn't be
able to recognize him.
God, how he hated himself.
How he loathed what he'd
done to her but in a snap
...it would all be forgotten.
And that's how they left
the world. Him, unforgiving
and her, tolerating it all.
My eight-year-old heart,
scarred by their toxic relationship,
yearned for them to find
peace; at least in their deathbed.
It's been years but they've
left their marks on me.
They still linger on my mind,
making me fear the way I
would behave with a beloved.
Because I'm too scared to
turn out like them and
lose too much of myself.
Sometimes, I would see
too much of myself in Her.
And his gentle eyes would
warp and twist and suddenly,
I'd see Him smiling at me.
Just when my heart would race,
his kind eyes would reveal themselves.
Slowly, I'd stopped seeing myself
in Her. I stopped looking for Him
in my beloved's handsome face.
It was only us and nothing more.
I was finally free of it.
But I was wary of commitment
for I would bind myself; forever.
One day, when he asked to be
mine I realized that the fear
was all in my head.
we were never going to be Them
because when I gave him
my heart, he didn't crush it.
He cradled it and I knew it was safe.
I finally knew I could let go.
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