Misconceptions

Chapter 8: Rude Awakenings

CHAPTER 8: RUDE AWAKENINGS

I had no idea what to say. All I know is my heart is pounding and Austin is staring into my eyes.

"I- I'm sorry," I say before I get up and take off. Austin HAD feelings for me. That doesn't mean he still has them right? People get over crushes. But he hurt me.

What kind of idiot hurts someone when they like? A best friend?

Why did I leave? I need to clear my head. I get back into the Roberts' car and pull out of the drive way. I have a nasty habbit of looking back when I know I shouldn't. I look over just in time to see Austin getting to the edge of the woods. I wonder what he's thinking.

It doesn't matter.

After the amount of hurt he caused, why should I change my mind for a confession for feelings he had two years ago. I finally made friends and he can't ruin that for me. He's been out of my life for 2 years now, I can live with out him.

But there's that tiny voice in the back of my head telling me to go back. That he needs me and I need him. Am I supposed to listen to it? I don't want to ignore it. There was always a part of me that thought we might end up together, but I never wanted to ruin our friendship. Now that our friendship is gone, does that make it time to start a relationship?

No.

You're forgetting how much he hurt you. Austin made me unable to trust people. Unable to make friends. And most of all; unable to forget the pain he caused me. Whose to say he won't do it again?

"Ughhhh!" I screamed out loud as I pulled into my driveway. It was just in time to see Josh and Emily getting our of Lucas' car. They saw me and waved as they began walking over.

"Pull yourself together Kristy," I mumbled encouragements to myself as I climbed out of the car. I smiled as they got to my driveway.

"Soooooo! Did you kiss?" Emily squealed. God, she really needs to stop doing that. I just rolled my eyes.

"No, we did not kiss. Believe it or not; we still hate each other," or at least I hate him.

"That's crap and even I know it," Josh declares. Well then Mr. I have known you for a day.

"No it's not! Stop trying to butt in! I was perfectly fine before I had any friends telling me I had feelings for a guy! Thanks for letting me borrow the car," I said as I tossed Josh the keys. This is why you don't have any friends Kristy. Austin was the only one willing to put up with you and that couldn't even last more than ten years. I could feel the tears running down my cheeks, but I didn't bother wiping them away. I hate crying and I've done it twice within the past hour.

"Kristy wait!" I heard Emily but I just kept walking. They are too nice for me. Soon enough she was right next to me.

"What happened back there?" I knew she was talking about me and Austin. I just broke down.

"He said he had feelings for me Emily! Feelings?! That's why he took my heart and stomped on it! BECAUSE HE HAD FREAKING FEELINGS FOR ME?!? WHO DOES THAT?!" I felt Emily pull me in for a hug and the tears just kept coming. I felt Josh come over and hug me too. The three of us are standing in the middle of my drive way hugging. We must look like idiots. At least we're idiots together.

"I'm sorry you guys. The first girl you met had to be a wack job," I whispered.

"Are you insane? You are the best person we could have met!" Josh tried to cheer me up. Emily just nodded her head holding back her tears. Wait.

"Why are you crying?" I giggled as we pulled away from the hug.

"Because this is a cute moment and I'm sensitive this time of month!" Emily cried. I hugged her while Josh just stood there awkwardly. Boys; they act like we're poisonous.