My Life Being Dead

My Life Being Dead, Chapter 17

He pulled away from my arms and silence hung in the air. I didn’t have to ask him to know what was wrong. “It’ll be okay.”

I saw the outline of his head shake in the darkness. “No. It won’t.” His voice

was unnaturally calm and level. My heart began to thump wildly in my chest. Did he know it was me??

“What’s wrong, Adam?” My voice sounded nervous.

“Melody’s a whore.” Finally, a different emotion was in his voice. It was unsteady. It sounded like he was in disbelief.

“I’m so sorry.” I went to hug him but he backed away.

“My mom died last night. In Denver.”

My heart went down, my brain went blank, and my hands were shaking. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I did this. He’s in so much pain, all because of me. This is all my fault.

I heard him cry, and saw his figure crumple to the floor. He sobbed down there, in the dark, until I bent down and wrapped my arms around him. “I’m so sorry.” He didn’t understand what I was sorry for, though. He had no idea what I’d done.

He shook his head. “This isn’t happening. It can’t be real. I’m losing everyone.” The despair in his voice was heartbreaking.

“You have me.” It came out as more of a question than a statement.

He kept crying. He didn’t answer.

He didn’t answer.

“You have me, Adam.” This time it was more of a command than a question or statement.

He got up and wiped the tears on his sleeve. “I need to be alone.” I looked up at him shocked. Was he really telling me to leave??

Anger rolled through me. The other me kicked and screamed to be let out, but for once, I reeled her in. I exited the closet quickly, shutting the door behind me.

I walked past my second period class, and out of the front doors of the school. I walked through the parking lot and through the patch of trees behind it. I walked out of the trees and stared at a field in front of me. I stopped, threw my head back and wailed. Screamed. Cried.

Nothing happened how I wanted it to. Nothing came out right. Everything is ruined. It’s all my fault. The lightning strike ruined me, but I ruined my life. I wanted to hurt someone, something. I wanted to kill someone.

After a ten minute hissy fit I stopped. I couldn’t take this anymore. I needed to take a break.

I’ll take over for you.

I thought about it. I mentally agreed and somehow, lost control of my body.

I settled back into my mind and let my other me do all the work. I wanted to mourn in peace.

She walked back towards the school. I noticed how confident her walk was compared to mine. I wondered if anyone would notice that something was different. Meagan wouldn’t.

She entered the doors and third period was just beginning. Lunch time for us.

She headed towards the cafeteria, passing Adam on the way. He looked very withdrawn, walking alone. She didn’t look at him, causing him to stare at her with confused eyes. I would have looked at him with pity. Maybe it was a good thing I was letting her take over.

Instead of getting lunch, she sat down in the middle of Meagan’s circle, smiling flakily at all her friends and winking at Meagan. Meagan’s face was priceless. Even I wanted to laugh.

“So Meagan, was it hard to find those pics of Melody? Or is your porn collection alphabetized?” She spit out her milk and looked at me in horror.

Her friends all looked at her questioningly. “Oh, she didn’t tell you guys? Oops. My bad!” They shot her daggers and looked at Adam’s table, obviously taking in how pathetic he looked, sitting alone.

Meagan barely made sense. “What you.. Wait I said… What the hell??” But her expression was less mad, more humiliated.

Her friends scoffed at her and looked away.

I chuckled and walked away. Or should I say, “she”.

She made her way to Adam’s table just as his friends reached it. She sat down right next to him and gave his friends a friendly look. Like we’d always been in their circle. “Don’t worry, baby. You can still come see me after school!” His friends looked at him, shocked.

Adam didn’t even look at them. He just looked into her eyes and nodded. He actually nodded. He acknowledged our relationship in front of ALL his friends. Oh my god. I thought I was going to have a hissy fit. Inside my head.

She smiled sweetly at him and rubbed his back comfortingly. She was good.

Before I knew what was happening, Meagan was standing behind us, grabbing us by the hair.

I wasn’t having that.

I turned around, easily breaking her grip on my hair and punched her dead in the face. None of that cat fight fuckery.

Adam gaped, his friends cheered and Meagan dropped to the ground.

Thankfully, no teachers were around, because we didn’t stop there.

She stood over her and addressed the gasping cafeteria. “Awww would you look at this, kinda opposite of how it’s been, isn’t it?”

Everyone kept staring at the girl who was a freak, but was now the queen.

“Well since I have your attention, I have an announcement to make! This little whore, laying under me, posted all the pictures of Melody around the school. Yep. She told me so.” Everyone took a deep intake of breath and Melody’s friends started yelling at her. I cleared my throat and looked at them viciously.

Meagan stared up at me in horror, but we continued. “I mean, I don’t know what I was expecting, any friend that would ditch you after you got struck by fucking lightning for hot sex has problems!” I smiled sweetly at the crowd of people watching us. “Now that you know, do what you will with her.”

I stepped over her, looking back at Adam, who had the same look of shock on his face as anyone else. I walked out of the lunchroom and down the hall to my car. I regained control over me suddenly, and let out a large breath.

I couldn’t believe that was me.

Believe it!

“You’re awesome!”

I got to my car and turned it on.

We’re awesome.

I smiled to myself and back out of the parking lot. I was just about to exit school property when I heard a gun shot.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

OMG! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN??? EVEN I DON'T KNOW YET! LMAO.

Stay tuned to find out! Make sure you vote and comment. Let me know what YOU think is going on and maybe I'll use your idea! I may ALSO dedicate a chapter to you! Lucky ducks! I LOVE YOU!........*awkward silence*........................*_^