The Angel's Paradise. ( Saeran x MC )

《 p r o l o u g e 》

Happiness is not a privilege. It is not a right, it's something that only a few are entitled to. There are many things that trigger this emotion, and there are many different triggers for different people.

I do not believe I have this trigger, nor do I have the emotion.

Sometimes, I didn't believe this emotion existed.

The only emotions I believed existed, were ones that I had. For a while, a person caused me to feel so much anger, and betrayal, that I believed those were the only emotions I was meant to feel. That I was damned to suffering. When then, through all my pain, a new light shone. She gave me faith, hope, and pride. She showed me a new way.

Instead of shattering what someone had only cracked, she showed me to shatter him. Take away everything he worked for, like he did to me. I no longer had to be envious, because I could have everything he has with just a few little tricks.

So I did. I thought I had broken him, to the point of no repair, him crumbling at my feet. It felt good, so good and I wanted to do it again. He'd never be able to pick himself back up.

And he didn't. But someone else did, and slowly, I came to the realization that I had wanted what he had, but not what I had been going after.

No, it wasn't his skills, his money, his job, or his forsaken happiness. Ever since he left me, I wasn't just alone. I was lonely.

Most of all, I wanted her.  She gave me a new light - Every word she spoke, everything she did, had put me in a trance.

Yet again, he had everything I couldn't. 

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A/N: Hi!!!!! I'm currently editing this story, so don't feel alarmed when you see that I have re-uploaded somethings. No major changes, nothing you need to re-read, just changing up the wording and making things less OOC.