I'm not going to lie to you , people have had it way harder than me , but I've never had it easy
The last 6 years have been a constant battle , with myself , people I love , old friends, new friends , everyone. Over the last 6 years I've lost people that I couldn't have been closer to. I've lost two people that moulded me into the person that I am today , and for that I'm truly grateful.
Over the last six years I've lost friends who I thought I would carry with me forever and whilst those battles were tough and brought me to the darkest times and made me bend my morals over and over again , these battles are the reason that the people I have in my life right now are people that I will carry forever and I will never forget the legacy we built together so chummysalmostfamous I want to say a special thank you to you , whilst we may not talk as much as we once did you've stuck around , you've brought me back from my darkest days and I can only hope that I can continue to do the same for you.
The last 6 years have possibly been the toughest 6 of my entire 16 nearly 17 so far , the idea of family I had in my head has been ripped from my memory and burned right in front of me , the people that are supposed to love me unconditionally have turned their backs on me and only manipulated me , lied to me and see my only purpose as someone they can extract information out of . But these people are the people that made me wake up and realised that family isn't always blood , whilst blood is thicker than water , sometimes that blood is the only thing that ties you together.
These last 6 years have been far from easy , I've had to face up to the harsh realities of life when my life had barley begun. But in a strange twisted way I'm thankful for that because it's taught me lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life , lessons that I couldn't be taught any other way. I thought it was the right time to reflect back on these years with an era ending and a new one beginning , I may not want to look back on these years and I will want to forget some of what took place during them , I will never forget the lessons that they taught me , the person I have become. Because whilst I have flaws , whilst I'm not the skinniest , prettiest or most mentally healthy person , I'm happy with who I've become , I'm proud to be in a position today where I'm not overly confident but I'm learning to love myself and the flaws I have . And I owe it all to the people in my life who I value dearly. Thank you.
