I never thought I'd have to write this , and I know you'll never see this but I need to her my emotions out otherwise i'll get ill so here goes.
I really don't know what I've ever done to deserve to be treated like this by my own family but I would never wish it upon even my worst enemy. You're my grandma you're supposed to love me as if I were your own and it's always them that you choose over me every. Single.time , how do you expect me to act when you pretty much say to my face that you prefer them to me , that they're the golden children? How is it that you are okay not seeing or talking to be for months , then all of a sudden when something happens and news can be fed back to them you suddenly act like you never left. What happened to the woman that I knew my grandad fell in love with ? What happened to the woman that said she would always love me no matter what and that she was proud of me ? Where did that woman? Because when I sit there and look at you , you look the same but you don't act the same.
And as for you , you're meant to be my cousins , cousins are the first friends that a child ever has , but not you . You turn everything in is competition even gaining our own nan's attention is a competition to you. You're just like you're mother a selfish , vindictive brat and I curse the day I ever met you . I feel bad for your brother because his role model is the most horrible person I have ever met in my 16 years of life. What makes you the golden child ? Because you're grades don't , well not the ones you actually got compared to the ones you told her you got. Why do you have this hatred for me when I have never done anything horrible to you? I have done nothing but loved you and tried to have a strong bond , I've tried to look out for you ! But you seem to forget that you're the younger one because I never get thought of , in an outcast compared to you.
So I've made my decision the minuet I can I'm cutting you all off , the only person that was tying me to this fucked up family was my grandad , the only one if you that ever saw me as his granddaughter , the man who said he loved me unconditionally and meant it, but he's long gone , we all know that.
