I honestly shouldn't feel like crying over this, you're not worth my tears you're just pathetic and tears show I'm weak anyway. For the first time since you left I feel empty, I guess it's cause you're the only one who felt the same, who never wanted to leave that house that was our home that had all our memories together, for four months I've been ok for four months I could keep it together and not me thinking what now , and I guess leaving that house means leaving all the happy memories I had with you, even if you did fuck up in that house and it was where it all fell apart I still care about them memories, I guess in a way I still care about you even though you did break my heart. You were the person o could escape to this summer especially when it all got too much, you were the one at the wedding to dry my tears and tell me you'd always be there for me and that you'd have my back no matter what you'll never leave what happened to the person I knew the person who loved me like his younger sister and you my older brother, I just want that person back especially now I really fucking need you 😔
