I Hate That I Love You

Chapter 10

Nina

Iris was spending the night at Ashley's and she asked if I could cover for her. I told her parents she was here and that she'd be home in the afternoon after school. Since I'm so smart and have never done anything bad in my life they believed me.

I know exactly what they're doing. Well for starters I'm happy for her and then I'm completely grossed out also I'm a little protective over her and vice versa. Even though I'm younger by five months she's like my sister and sisters protect each other. No matter what.

2 Hours Later Iris

" Wow." I said breathless.

" Yeah." He replied.

" Yeah" I said.

" Wow." I laughed at that and then he laughed too.

" I just can't believe how-how amazing and magical it was." I was still in complete bliss.

" I know i havent gone that slow since i lost my virginity. "

" Um... well... o-okay then." Wow Iris you took this magical moment and turned it into complete awkwardness.

" Its true. I wanted to make it as great and as painfree as possible. But i mean i knew the pain was unavoidable. Thats why i did it fast. Like a Band-Aid. Once i felt myself break through and i saw you cry i hated myself."

" Babe it happens. Just like you said the pain is unavoidable. But im glad it was with you. I trust you." He smiled. Touched by what i said.

" Iris im glad. I wasnt sure about doing this so soon. I would have waited."

" Well i wouldn't have waited. It was special and ive never felt as great as i did when it happened. I really want more of it." I kissed him roughly. But he pushed ne away gently.

" Ah. Ah. Ah. Not right now. Your sore, but there will be plenty of weekends, dates, and sleepovers to do that. And when those times come i will be waiting."

" Good cause i cant wait." I bit my lip innocently with a look of lust in my eyes. That seemed to do something to him.

" Oh god. Look what i turned you into! A sex crazy woman!"

" Damn right." He grabbed me and pulled me atop of him. Round 2 was about to happen. But it didn't. He layed me back down smirked.

" You asshole your such a tease!" He laughed and kissed me on the head.

Soon the tiredness got to me and i fell asleep right where i knew i belonged. In Ashley's arms.

That Morning Ashley

I woke up early. I was glad i did because i want to make her breakfast. But the problem is i don't know what she wanted.

Seeing her sleep, watching her reactions when she moaned my name, how beautiful her smile was, and the way her voice sounded plus the way my heart beat faster when she said she loved me. Those moments were everything i ever dreamed of when i fell in love with her.

But Kenzie ruined everything for me. I was gonna ask Iris out the day my heart stood still that moment when i saw her.

That evil bitch forced me to do things i never wanted to do. And i did those things to keep my baby, my love, my Iris alive and happy.

Day by day i had sex with countless girls and women. I had to fuck Kenzie and her friends. Even her little sister who was fourteen at the time. She was forced as was i. We both closed our eyes and it was over quickly. And i still hate myself to this day. I was sixteen when that happened.

But what happened to my family i will never let happen to Iris. I refused one thing and it ruined my life forever.

Kenzie is a sick person that i wish would just die already. I have this place cause of her but because of the things she forced me to do. Such as porn and photographs.

I was lucky to have never even gotten a disease from them. Or kids. Dont get me wrong i love kids and i want kids. But only with Iris. Because whores are horrible mothers if they continue to be the way they are.

I just-I just wanna be free, for Iris to be free. Kenzie said once we graduate she'll stop but i dont even think she'll stop then. And when we have kids i dont wanna be forced to do things. Or them. Or my Iris.

One day Kenzie will pay. For my family and my life. Today is the day i tell Iris everything.

30 Minutes Later Iris

I woke up to the smell of sausage, eggs, and cheese. Yum!

" Ash?" He came in the room and the look on his face was full of love.

" Mmm. What smells so good?"

" My specialty. Egg, sausage, and cheese sandwiches!" He put on a little hat and acted like a chef. Hes too cute. Literally i thought a baby panda was the cutest thing ever. Nope not anymore.

" Hey got any pancake syrup?" He gave me a weird look but went in his fridge and fished out some syrup for me.

" Why?" He asked me. I didn't answer just yet. I smirked and mouthed a "thank you".

" This." I took the top piece of bread off, lucky the cheese hadn't really melted so i took that off too. I poured a little on top of the eggs and my stomach growled in anticipation.

" Wait. Ive heard people do that before. That looks gross. Is it?"

" Hell no. I never it my eggs sandwiches without it. The only way i have no syrup on it is if we run out. I swear its the best thing ever. I tried this on a dare at Ninas house. Ive tried lots of things that i thought was disgusting but wasnt. Sushi, eggs, veggies. When i was a kid my mom eould have to cook me chicken cause i thought everything else was in the world was disgusting. But i never tried other things. And i love veggies so much and i feel so stupid for being as picky as i was."

" I wanna try it." He grabbed the bottle but i stopped him. I cut a piece off mine and he hesitantly took a bite. I sniled as his face turned to shock. He shoved the rest of the piece in his mouth and poured syrup on his sandwich.

" Shit! Why does that taste so good!"

" I know right? Its the salty and sweet affect. Literally those two are best friends with the taste buds."

" Oh god. I love you. Damn im in heaven." He took a another bite and looked completely in a daze. Like last night hehe.

" Your welcome." After we ate he cleaned the dishes and then we sat down to watch tv. Or so i thought. I sat in Ashley's lap not caring that it was Tuesday and i skipped school. His lips trailing kisses on my neck and hair.

" So Iris? I wanna tell you about my life. Im not gonna sugar coat it. Its scary and its a living nightmare that cant escape. But your the goodness that makes me sure that i can get through it."

" Babe im right here." He picked me up bridal style and layed me down on the bed. Then he layed next to me and he held my hands. All of a sudden he burst into tears. He was crying so hard he was shaking the bed a little. I couldnt take it. It made me cry and i realized what it must feel like for him to see me do it.

" Im sorry." He said through sobs. My heart is hurting.

" Babe im right here. I love you. Im here. Im here. Im not leaving." I already applied for my dream job for this science museum for kids and i get to teach them about chemicals and stuff. But if i do get it im not going to Yale. I can't leave Ash like this. And i won't if i get it. He stopped crying and slowly but surely began on his life story.

Told you it was gonna get crazy lol and the syrup thing is true. Its to die for. Its just so awesome. And the pic of Ash is what he looks like when he thinks or looks at Iris so sweet ❤