Lavender Seeds

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Sh.
don't speak.
I don't want to hear of it.

I grew to love the scent of lavender seeds stuffed in the sheets of my bed.
To mask the scent of my decaying heart,
or maybe just my tear stained pillow case.

I fell for you, and you convinced me you fell as hard too.
but you're still standing at the edge of the cliff,
while I lay at the bottom of the pit.

You love your girls a certain way. And somehow, I thought
maybe
I'm a girl you'd accept.

Darling, I know, I could do better.
I could move on, and find a man
who loves me better than you ever can.
oh, but I wanted you, so badly.

I wanted you to be the one.
I wanted you to forget the rest.

Now, our friendship wilted
and our conversations thinning close to none,
I'll never forget the way you grew on me,
as though you were a lavender seed.